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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 995 , Sunday 19/07/2026

Sunday started after a nice lay in at about 8am.

It’s been a mostly quiet day, a few chores & then an afternoon spent catching up on some of Mrs S’s shows.

Huntsman pie and salad for tea, with our favourite strawgogs & ice cream for dessert!

Final Thoughts.

Not a bad day at all - my back has forgiven me, which is a good thing because there are a few jobs to do next week that will need me to abuse it again!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Hey autistic community. I got a question about autism and HSP. I remember a discussion on the fedi, that HSP is an ableist invention and that HSP actually are on the autistic spectrum. But I don't have any clues about that, nor links to the old discussion. Research on the web always results in speaking of both of two different things. I am curious, what's your take on ASD vs HSP?
#actuallyautistic #autism #hsp #hypersensitivity @autistics

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 996 , Monday 20/07/2026

Monday & I reluctantly got my ass down to the gym. Not a bad gym session, I am slowly settling into the current difficulty level on the bike, I am happy with my walk rate on the treadmill, I need a couple more weeks at 5.8 km/h before I take it up to 5.9 - I don’t want to stress my heart too much.

I’m firmly stable with the weights, my right arm was hurting after previous sessions but that is now passing as I get stronger.

A relaxed rest of the day after doing my chores.

Chicken skewers & salad for tea, with, yes you guessed it, strawberries & ice-cream for dessert.

Final Thoughts.

Not a bad day at all.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

someone the other day posted about their RSD being triggered by losing followers and tbh, I felt that. especially because we seem to lose a whole bunch of people whenever we post about certain topics that are personal and close to our heart, for example our plurality. I try not to let it to get me but I can't really help it. it's a difficult experience. just wondering if anyone else in the ADHD, autistic, and/or plural communities can relate?

#ADHD #ActuallyAutistic #plural #RSD @autistics

(This reaction is about the scene, not CarlP's post.)

Most misunderstood—some dismissed—this as a trauma/panic response or attack, the truth is it was an autistic meltdown.

#Autism #Meltdown #ActuallyAutistic #ExtraordinaryAttorneyWoo

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1017 , Monday 10/08/2026

Monday started early, as Mondays do. Down to the gym then back for a quick breakfast before we drove across to my late MiL’s place to collect the final odds & sods & let the clean & clear crew in.

One of the delights of the trip across is seeing the glorious countryside, I shall miss doing this trip on a regular basis!

Then back home for a mega ‘The Capture’ Season 3 fest to take Mrs S’s mind off what was happening to her childhood home!

Had a naughty takeaway for tea, we were going to go out for a pub meal but I was just too tired!

Final Thoughts.

Well that’s it, it has taken far longer than I ever imagined but my parents-in-law’s house is now being prepped for sale.

The crew will be there tomorrow so we need to go over tomorrow afternoon to collect the keys but then it is done! All that will be needed then is for us to keep am. Eye on the place until it is sold.

What will we do with our weekends!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic many an asshole in the past has learned his at their peril...

…and there's a lot more in the present and future who are going to find out as well

https://mas.to/@skeletor/117073074428348698

ALT

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 936 , Thursday 21/05/2026

I was aiming to get up a bit later this morning but thanks to next door I was awake at just gone 6!

I really hope the new neighbours are ones that like a bit of a later start!

It’s been an easy day of the usual chores followed by some time configuring my various ships in Elite Dangerous.

Final Thoughts.

Really struggling to concentrate on stuff of a morning at the moment - brain will not get into gear!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics

I wonder if Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria is a lot more prevalent in my life than I realized.

I hate (I don't use this word lightly) being questioned on my choices. It feels intensely emotionally painful, even if the questioner is being curious or trying to understand instead of accusing or blaming.

I have a graveyard of unfinished projects, business ideas, etc. I wonder if, and what part, RSD plays in my difficulties finishing and launching a thing publicly.

I definitely stress over details, worrying about how a thing I do will be perceived, how it could be judged, etc.

Does that resonate with anyone else? What's your experience with RSD?

#ActuallyAutistic #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #RSD #AuDHD #Neurodivergent

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 997 , Tuesday 21/07/2026

Tuesday started around 7am.

I’ve done a few things around the house & in the garden today, nothing major but I’m glad I got them done.

Have finally got around to ordering some lockable ladder brackets for our big set of ladders that have been knocking around the back garden without a proper home for far too long.

Pulled pork burgers & salad for tea & I caved to the temptation of hitting the strawberries & ice cream for pud. It’s amazing how far one can stretch a punnet with a bit of imagination.

Final Thoughts.

The weather continues to play nice & that has made today a positively pleasant day.

Back to the gym in the morning - still something that needs a force of will, hopefully there will come a time where it is just habit.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #ThatAwkwardAutisticMoment where you are detailing a pattern of shitty behavior to an allistic ...

…only to have said allistic miss the entire fucking point…

…and refuse to acknowledge the shitty behavior in any way, shape, or form

Found a resource that helps explain what an autistic shutdown is (and also meltdown, but I find it rare to find anything on shutdowns so I’m focusing on shutdowns only here).

I’m still pondering how I feel about the concept that meltdowns follow hyperarousal (according to this link) and shutdowns follow hypoarousal.

My shutdowns always immediately follow a period of extreme stress. I have always seen them as an internalisation of a meltdown, not due to different things. Hypoarousal sounds like sleep or boredom to me, not stress followed by an internalised meltdown. Sometimes a shutdown happens because I am in an unsafe environment where I cannot get upset or that my expressing autistic myself is what caused the environment to become unsafe, e.g. by being misunderstood.

Still, I always appreciate different perspectives. Even if I don’t always relate to them.

Anyone else come across any links to websites or videos that they feel explain autistic shutdowns well? My goal at the moment is to have a link to an explanation in case a loved one asks about what they are. This is so I do not have to speak if currently in or recovering from a shutdown. (Not asking about meltdowns, just shutdowns, as they seem to be far less talked about.)

https://ndconnection.co.uk/resources/p/understanding-meltdown-shutdown

@autistics

#ActuallyAutistic #AskingAutistics

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 998 , Wednesday 22/07/2026

Wednesday is gym day so down the gym bright & early.

It has been quite a dull day but not cold.

Nothing special to report, just your average quiet Wednesday.

Final Thoughts.

The ladder brackets I ordered came late this afternoon so will fit those tomorrow if the weather stays dry.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

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@autistics #YouTube #Neurodivergent #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAuDHD

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#ActuallyAutistic

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 999 , Thursday 23/07/2026

Thursday started just after 7am.

Chores followed breakfast.

The ladder brackets arrived yesterday so I took the bull by the horns & fitted them.

The fixings provided were very brittle & after some trial & error I found that a set of coach bolts finally secured the brackets firmly.

Why is it a simple job - drill 4 holes & place 2 brackets with 4 bolts take sooooooo long!
Hey ho done now, the big ladders have a proper home for the first time in a long time!

Spent the afternoon investigating a couple of derelict spaceships -I do live the variety that Starfield provides!

Costco’s best pulled pork lasagne for tea.

Final Thoughts.

It has been a warmer day today which made working outside pleasant.

I am glad the ladders finally have a proper home!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

https://neurodifferent.me/@theautisticcoach/117236301045097236

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I created a d&b playlist that feels a bit dreamy, relaxing and leads to an intense, joyful dancing part. Then I had a look at the song titles - Sickly, Fear, Times Up, Bitter End, Isolation and similar vibes. Now I feel like a member of the Addams family.

https://bandcamp.com/kacihue/playlist/drifted

#ActuallyAutistic #neurodivergent #dnb

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1000 , Friday 24/07/2026

Oh Nuggan’s holey nuts! It’s been a thousand days since I discovered I’m Neurospicy!

I wish I had a more exciting day to report but sadly the most exciting thing that happened was that I mopped the bathroom floor!

That said this morning’s gym session went really well, effort level 9 has been conquered on the bike & I took the treadmill up to 5.9 kmh & survived the experience!

The weights are still not progressing as I would hope, my ability to lift (rather than pull) weights is not noticeably improving but I soldier on!

It’s been another sunny summer day here in deepest, darkest Yorkshire & the day has been a mix of chores & Starfield.

Pizza for tea - I can resist anything but temptation!

Final Thoughts.

Well who would have thunk I could keep any sort of diary for this long!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics

Sooooo after having RSD simmer in the back of my mind all day and the thread unravel... yep. It me.

Anybody got any recos for RSD resources? Books, videos, etc?

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

https://www.instagram.com/p/DcUOUCnIiF8/

ALT

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1018 , Tuesday 11/08/2026

Tuesday started a bit later than normal at just before 07:30, it would have started later but our noisy neighbours had been hoovering up & shouting since 06:30 & I just gave up fighting it.

It was a lovely relaxed morning after breakfast & a few chores.

We went out for lunch - & had a delicious meal at a pub we discovered in January.

We got back & settled in to finish our ‘The Capture’ season 3 fest.

The phone went at 3pm to say that the clean & clear crew would finish at 4pm & we needed to collect the keys … Mrs S decided to go on her own, which was fine by me as Starfield was calling.

Then it all went wrong - our hopes that this was the final stage before actually selling the house were dashed.

The clean & clear people had cleared out the property but had utterly failed to clean anything & worse had broken the remote controlled garage door!!
They have damaged the tracking arm that pulls / pushes the door open / shut, it is visibly distorted & out of its track. They are trying to claim it wasn’t them but no-one else has been there & it worked fine when we left yesterday morning!

So now instead of spending tomorrow celebrating our wedding anniversary we will be trying to get the garage door fixed as it is jammed open at the moment. Folks cannot get into the main house or steal anything (since there is nothing to steal). It is still a worry though.

Final Thoughts.

Oh Nuggan’s holey nuts! We thought that we were on the home straight but it seems not!!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #ThatAwkwardAutisticMoment when you’re watching a #TrueCrime podcast on #YouTube about a story you already know…

…and you're giddy to see the host freak out once they learn what you already know