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some normal person is giving me trouble for my black and white thinking and such when I say, "normal people."
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It's like if I were black and I wasn't allowed to say "white people," isn't it
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my idea is that they say they don’t like evolution because of the past, they don’t want to think of themselves as the offspring of apes - but of course it’s really about the present and the future, they don’t want to know that it’s them making the broken, futureless human nature, they don’t want to break cycles and have to absorb the abuse of their childhood and never “get their power back” (Alice Miller’s language) from their children.
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My . . . thorough acceptance of evolution tells me that’s exacty what they have to do, but I haven’t been able to convince one of them, let alone all of them. They seem to think they have the freedom to believe whatever they want.
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Blowing hard again, sorry 🫣
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got Antiques Roadshow on and they’re talking about To Kill a Mockingbird and it’s one of the “most important books in American history,” and my divergence/contrarianism is grumbling, You mean it SHOULD have been, it WOULD have been if anything had changed.
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I mean, I know about the civil rights movement and it’s successes, but the pendulum is swinging back again, and sure all that literature is brilliant and, honestly, “should have been important,” is about as good as it gets with a creature that collectively cannot learn.
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It’s my same old story, same old song and dance, I find the whole
world of NT culture and speech to be devoid of causality, there is a blanket built in (and selected for) attitude that the default state of life and of people’s morals is shit, and so they aren’t even trying to understand WHY people do bad things. Racism is bad, that seems to be the message forever and the good non-racists seem happy to keep saying it and hoping, no-one thinks there needs to be a real world cause for hate, or that there could therefore be a real world solution.
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So again, both “sides,” of the majority neurotype simply accepting that this evil is simply a forever and “natural,” part of life, the opposite “sides,” of this argument share the same core belief in a causeless, changeless, mythological sort of a “nature.”
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Right? I mean, that’s how things look to me, but grain of salt, I’m pretty depressed. 💜
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it's just like Rudolf the red nosed reindeer
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I mean except I don't want to be a dentist, I want to be a singer
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oh and I'm not an elf, I'm a supervillain
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you know, because everyone hates me and I want to, uh, change the world and also I've been monologuing since I could talk 😀
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imagine you’re a “normal person,” raised in a world built by and for #Autistics and populated with almost all Autistics, with the “normal people,” marginalized out of sight. You’re a normal sort, with three digits of IQ, you fancy you can put two and two together and you can see the Autistics have all sorts of problems, and you lived a full human lifetime among them, read a lifetime’s worth of their books- here’s my question:
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How well do you think you would understand them?
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I’ve got the story of the British/Canadian “Home children,” on again, and again I’m blown away by the lengths they will go to to ensure trauma and ignorance and disconnection in the next generation and Britain literally built Canada and the rest of the colonies on it.
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These enormous crimes upon the world’s Indigenous were perpuated by committing crimes against the colonizing powers’ own children, tearing them out if their lives and families, destroying their psyches and then giving them a homestead, it’s make your place, colonize or starve.
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It’s a difficult argument to make, group dynamics is built into the majority and growing still, but group dynamics is an Allistic . . . error, there really is no in-group, and almost no-one is getting the “good,” treatment. Again, the reason they see an out-group is because they are abused.
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Group dynamics is the Allistic usual thought, like capitalism, we are to believe hurting people gives us the good life, we are to believe our life comes from destroying others’ lives but again, it’s not true and despite we are mostly all engaged in capitalism and group dynamics, we are still mostly poor and still mostly living as poorly as our enemies.
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And again, so the payoffs are not material things, but emotional, feeding a need to hurt, whether it pays off in the good life or not, and again, always, if you wanted to create this need, you would probably hit children.
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it’s so stupid that when a find a spoon, I spend it trying to grow a short spike, I mean trying to sing, or managing to cook, and I can never find a second spoon to update the blog. I just want to make an entry for that Savants as Spandrels idea, it’s maybe ten steps 😠
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it’s another level of executive function I’ve been waiting for for weeks or months
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The thing about the Autistic outsized ‘sense of justice,’ well there’s a few things, it’s not some
fuzzy abstraction, it’s something real, but the point is that I see exactly where the majority sort’s sense of justice went!
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They’re trying to find where our sense for this came from: they punish it out of everyone from the day they can walk enough to get into trouble by touching things or needing something. You lose your sense of justice when you are assaulted by your parents and told THAT is something like justice.
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If you can’t see this simplest of psychological causality, I’m sorry, it may be too late for you, perhaps many, many generations too late. It took its toll, ran part of its course in your parents and your grandparents.
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If you can’t even postulate it, if you can’t imagine that this experience of being spanked might produce that effect in maybe some circumstances, if someone like me is trying to tell you that when you let go of the apple it will fall towards the Earth and we’ve lost you already, for you the apple simply disappears and reappears on the ground or something (that analogy is better than I expected), then that is something long term thing, evolution has somehow allowed this sense to atrophy. It’s a neurotype matter, but not an Autistic matter.
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I said too much. I shouldn’t have gone on the offence, I didn’t turn the other cheek.
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I just get tired sometimes.
You type a couple of hundred words and instead of reading it and making any effort, they see one word and start telling me what I’m saying.
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I’m sort of glad the gloves came off sooner than later, I guess, but I wish I hadn’t taken mine off too.
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depression is isolating, I’m always caught between needing to express it and holding it back so as not to spread the illness, make others sad.
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I’m stuck, I think all day long for decades and depression seems like the only possible conclusion, so I’m convinced that if I explained it to anyone they’d have to respond with depression too, so I don’t want to be doing that. I don’t want to win those arguments with anyone.
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I just keep thinking that the majority type has no idea, that they don’t see the size or the gravity of anything, that as an Autist I have my own world that I inhabit and they do not, and I fear the end of the world, while
they sort of don’t even live in it?
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I’m not getting there, I’ll try some
more later 😬🧐
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advertising is a clinic in Allistic fallacies and biases, I’ve always been fascinated by it.
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I love the Both ways ads, the golf ball that both flies straighter AND spins more, the reusable tape that both “holds anything,” AND pops off with a little twist!
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But the bait and switch, the ask one question and answer another - problem: I hate cleaning. Solution: this broom gets it REALLY clean. Great leader talks like that and people are used to it because advertising. I mean, they seem to choose to employ the fallacy, uh, on purpose, seemingly trying to grow it rather than fight it.
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I hope I’m depressed enough to get a pass for my arrogance, and I’m sorry, but honest to God, it is starting to look like the Planet of the Apes out there to me
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I once read a novel called "Shibumi," which was defined as effortless perfection and the hero seemed capable of anything, the man you called to do the impossible, and I never realized how much I took that to heart because that seems to be my delusion, first I've analyzed and solved humanity's problems and I have to try to rescue dead guitars by doing what luthiers don't try to do, I seem to think I'm that guy, and whoa boy, is that a few degrees away from the reality 😂 😂 😂
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If I have an attention deficit, I think it’s on purpose, like the lesser of two evils. I’d rather miss something than have to keep trying to give this Other People’s World my full attention all the time, the content is kind of all the same.
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Same as everyone maybe, I limit my attention in self defense. I mean, if everyone knows what’s going on and is telling the truth about it, sure, stop and listen, but - ‘nuff said.
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It it’s all, “It’s a good life if you don’t weaken,” and, “Resistance is futile,” on loop, then I can get the message quick enough with half an ear, that doesn’t require all my resources and why would would I stop my reading to listen to that still, it’s been playing all my goddam life.
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Still getting the hang of reaching of reaching our community since the changes. So reboosting this full article...

https://neurodifferent.me/@johnnyprofane1/116795576211665021

ALT

when I name a thing and you call me a hater for it that’s you naming me to hate me because that’s your world where everyone is a hater, and that’s true of everyone and everyone can be accused of it and be guilty - your world, the majority type’s worldview and world.
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Somehow hating everyone with an opinion like that doesn’t count, if you hate all of humanity you are somehow not a hater (EDIT TO ADD: as long as We are All the Same)!
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But describe anything less than everyone including yourself and you’re the hater.
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That’s all the majority type’s psychology. As per another thread on here, my sort can name things for informational purposes, we don’t name them to place them in the outgroup, identification and hate are separate matters for the non-Allistic.
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Naming them in particular draws the accusation of hate because they are less separate things for the Allistics and so the accusation is automatic for them, if there is a name there is hate.
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I suppose this is why they only like “normal,” and nothing specific, like Allistic, or heterosexual, or cis, for them a name is a threat, that’s what names are for. 💜
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NEURODIVERGENT MANSIONS

in my mind are many caverns
pieces of me, hidden within...
well, damn near most of em.

I find memories every day
i never knew... I had
yet that's me, smiling at me
from every damn one of em.

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I’ve taken all this theory and neurodiversity to heart and honestly I live in a different world than everybody else and I’m losing my ability to talk to anyone
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@autistics
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yesterday was a rough day, the black dog was humping my leg all day
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and it was weird that I managed to pick up the guitar and make some improvements to a few of those Dummies tunes at all but weirdly strange what is wrong about them too from being at my limit, mostly a bizarre rhythm, at once fast in spots and slow in others, keeping a sort of a steady long term rhythm while never being right in any given instant
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post hatching I’m still forever in the same situation I’ve always been in, of talking all day, look at my output here, and still being continually surprised that no-one knows where I’m at
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I mean, it’s a complex stance to be sure, but the world is full of things people do that are too complex for me, I can’t even begin with music theory or chess or even language
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but genetics and neurotype don’t work that way, it’s not a spectrum from simple to complex whatevers, it’s usually specific, isn’t it. Neurodiversity’s spiky ball of traits shows that types are brilliant in some areas and slower in others, like in the absent minded professor meme, which is real in many cases, just because you grok relativity doesn’t prove you can tie your shoelaces.
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I am feeling spectacularly rare over here. 😳💜💜💜
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#NTPsychology
a New Yorker Magazine sort of cartoon panel, Everyman, you, on the couch, psychiatrist peering over his clipboard, speaking,
“Obviously, Low Self Image is going to be a problem. I mean, look at you.”
😜
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Theory: cringe comedy is a bunch of #ND actors trying to emulate NT humour 😜
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That’s more NT psychology, B.
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Autistics, especially aspie pricks like me don’t “put ourselves down,” we are realistic about our challenges.
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When I tell you about my challenges around music, that’s not my bad attitude holding me back - that’s more We are All
the Same nonsense that NT people are so sure of - as if everyone is a musician! - that’s me boasting to you about what I can do despite my challenges.
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When I tell you I’m playing a slide song but I can’t play slide, that’s me bragging about how I’ve figured a way to do it despite my challenges - FFS, can’t you see my hands and haven’t I told you the left one is asleep most of rhe time? It’s a real disability, not some bad attitude so you can make it my own fault and easily solved.
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Bah, never mind. You know better, of course.
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Frustrating. 😠
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I don’t want to keep railing at that person, I can’t imagine how hard life must be like that
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but I am making myself laugh a bit carrying on with myself about it
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I mean, the Autistics who can function and sort of pass, the ones who manage to learn to talk, if the doctors and the parents could actually listen to us when we do, if they would engage with our neurotype when it is articulate, the kids and adults with the biggest challenges, as well as we Daywalkers would all be having a better time of it.
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The last thing a parent with high needs kids should want to be doing is shutting down the ones with a foot in both worlds, the ones who can tell them how Autistics think. They only want the ones who can’t talk or something?
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Sorry.
I didn’t know until I started posting that I’ve definitely crawled out from under the wrong side of my rock today.
💜
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