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Psychiatrists, your time is up. Clipboards down, please present your patients to the judges (and the lawyers and the police). 🤨
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#Psychology #IWatchTooMuchTV
#ND @autistics

ha ha ha
another little post hatching realization.
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I always talk to children and animals as though they can understand and if the kids can’t that’s how they learn, and today’s little slap in face comes from that I do that because I’m Autistic and that’s how it works when I’m talking to anyone, adult humans included, that’s what “talking,” is for me, I just talk to myself and I and everyone else just pretend we’re the same species speaking the same language 😠💜
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@autistics #AuDHD #ND #ActuallyAutistic

you can’t understand Autism or divergence if you keep understanding everything you already do as an NT person. If it doesn’t completely rewrite your understanding of “human nature,” if you try to fit it within your existing understanding of “human nature,” you’re not getting the concept.
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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #NTPsychogy #ND #AuDHD

we fidget because what the Hell
else is your brain supposed to do in this stupid, stupid world where they just, “don’t believe,” whatever the fuck they like
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@autistics #AuDHD #ND #ActuallyAutistic

The majority thinks that people are generally the same, except for some individual differences, of course it’s more complicated than that, there seems to be a majority who are generally the same, but they’re one type, humanity is divided into neurotypes, there are other types that are mostly the same among themselves, so that’s a third layer of complexity, and still there are individual differences both within types and also individual differences that transcend types.
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It’s another layer of complexity but it’s a better theory, explains more than the other one.
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That’s why I’m all in on neurodiversity theory, if it explains more, I don’t see that ignoring it is an option.
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@autistics #AuDHD #ND #Psychology #NTPsychology #ActuallyAutistic

I want to aplogize to my NT wife and kids for spending my time talking about, trying to live according to principles they can never understand.
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It’s still impossible to wrap your head around, I suppose the same way they never understand us. My kid is mad at me for judging them about something, and they think it was what the bad guys judge for, gender, sexuality, but it was this, wasn’t it, that I, never having heard of neurotype, was judging them every time I talked about No Spanking and expecting them to understand that.
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They’re convinced my lifelong obsession about it is some kind of a lie, because No Spanking just isn’t a thing, does not compute. I never spanked them, I tried to stop the ex from spanking them, so I SAID, “No Spanking,” and I never spanked - my words and my real history are one - still somehow a lie, and that just means it simply does not compute for them, they don’t, they can’t get it.
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It’s an actuarial matter, they simply cannot see the causality.
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I’m sorry, in hindsight, knowing what I know now about neurodiversity, now I guess I can sort of understand y’all’s reaction to me. Knowing what I do now, I wouldn’t ever try again. For all of our sakes, I wish had known what I was, failing that, I wish I had never met your mother.
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@autistics #AuDHD #ND #ActuallyAutistic

I think I say this a lot but I am just so incredibly burnt about all the years I wasted listening to my NT siblings parroting their #NTPsychology at me, shaking their heads at me like I’m the one not getting it.
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I was born knowing that and they weren’t and can never learn it, they know nothing, but they’re going to teach what they do not understand to the person who wrote the book. NT psych is business psych, army psych. It is not humanist or medical, it’s only there to keep you going to work.
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They spent the greater half of all of our lives telling me something is wrong and guessing about my possible early abuse, they listened to me tell them I had taken the whole idea further and refused to dish out even “normal,” levels of abuse, that I forsook and banned punishment, period - and when my bubble popped, I found out they hadn’t heard or believed any of it, and assumed I had been rough on the kids, despite everything I ever said or did: they couldn’t hear, “no punishment.”
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It’s not a thing. The NT have no brain path, no neuroreceptors for the negation of punishment. There are probably more aspects to the actuarial function, but that’s part of it and they don’t have it.
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What of my life they didn’t wasting talking their psychobabble, I wasted trying to tell them not to hurt people and expect things to improve because of it. THAT’s what I understand to be the core idea of lower case “p” psychology.
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I didn’t learn/figure out until my sixties that there are different brain types and that they don’t all have all the features, and then I finally saw that they just can’t get it.
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And yes, I pathologize. It’s a problem.
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Sorry. 💔😇
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@autistics #AuDHD #ND #Psychology #Philosophy #ActuallyAutistic

You ever think, that’s me? That’s my life? Where you’d clearly be insane if you weren’t bloody right?
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#IWatchTooMuchTV #ND #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic @autistics

that Sapolsky rant the other day, been thinking about how it played out, and that’s how I work, I hear something, some #Psychology or some science and at first I think it’s totally intuitive, I’ll have a question, Is this right? or I’ll make the leap, This isn’t right! and then I’ll start talking to myself, talk my way through it - and like in this case, often stumble upon my own point in it all almost by accident.
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I was all day on that, finally coming around to that: this premise is the opposite of everything else they say about people and maybe the opposite of nearly every human child’s experience. My intuition leading me to some truth I wasn’t seeing either, sort of. Or I think it’s “just intuition,” but really it’s just knowledge?
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics

Sapolsky Thursday
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there's some stuff about identities and being biracial but I don't think there's anything needs a warning. I mean I maybe could have used one, but I think folks are used to it - you'll see in the first comment or two 😬
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OK, here's the warning: there's all these studies that show group dynamics already at work very early in life, kind of even too early for my wholeview
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it's all trolling me, so I gotta lotta comments
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#Evolution #Psychology #NTPsychology #ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics
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https://youtu.be/5ib2QbIfx7k?si=nAJ3rDvOhiOLnjAC

RE: https://mstdn.social/@archaeology/116942317256778474

My point is, what is the point of trying to show the violence is forever except to justify it today? What good does it do us to think that it’s forever?
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#Evolution #Psychology #NTPsychology #Philosophy #ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics

I am so tired of getting answers that show they never read what I already said - I want the blue one
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“Oh, you want one? Cool. What colour?”
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No, never mind, I don’t want to buy anything from you, fuck off.
This in TEXT. All they had to do
was look at it. 😠🤮
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It’s a fictional example and it’s probably exactly what people experience talking to me
too, but still. If you’re Autistic and this happens, that’s OK, we’re good, shit happens, we focus on the wrong things a lot. It’s just when I think it’s some regular person to whom I’m invisible and inaudible I get mad and tired. 😠
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics

It doesn’t mean anything that,
“we are all unique,” it doesn’t matter that we all have something unique about us - except that it’s the opposite of, “neurotypes exist.”
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The point the world needs to learn is that everyone is NOT unique, that everyone is a TYPE, with traits common to many, that’s science, that’s information we could be doing something with - while, “we are all,” ANYTHING is the untrue opposite, a meme that destroys actual knowledge and erases actual neurodiversity.
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Why you wanna be unique (and alone) anyway? 🫣😀
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#AuDHD #ND #ActuallyAutistic @autistics

now you’re angry
it’s happening again
to you
some man’s mouth is flapping
and that’s never good
You have no idea
what he’s on about
but you know what
comes next
You have no idea
I tried so hard
but I never felt seen
while you were
smiling
and I don’t feel seen
now that you’re not
You need
time to process, no
fuck you
nothing about me
without me
and I don’t take breaks
You don’t process me
I’m a person
I process
my own self
and you happened to me
again too
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics

It seems obvious that my fascination with wildlife rescue on teevee is because of the parallels. My descent into the matrix world of comfort teevee has brought me to, “My Best Friend is an Animal,” sooner than I’d hoped and it’s often animals that have been rehabbed and released coming back and hanging around voluntarily and maintaining the relationship.
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So a case in point, a tree kangaroo whose mother was hit by a car and it got thrown right out of the pouch very young.
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So now, barely born, traumatized, thrown out of mom and its whole world and suddenly in another world entirely - maybe the trauma’s parallel is the human birth, marsupials don’t have that, the birth and early life is a long, slow, safe transition for them.
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Then, raised by humans, this is what I’m suggesting, the #ND share that experience, raised by NT humans.
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The reintroduction is perhaps not as obvious.
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A lot of divergent kids need extra care and attention. It’s not that we lost mom and the world like this animal did, but more that we have a lot of trouble gaining the world in the first place.
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But as the Asperger clinic and at least some of the doctors there saw, the extra time and care can help us to gain more of it than we may without more time and less discipline.
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I suppose unless we are institutionalized, we do experience the gradual introduction to the “wild,” of the NT world.
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But when we are released, the rescuers often move away or downsize their home, the extra care ends. I suppose it’s my RSD, but I often watch a release and feel the animal has simply become homeless. 🥹💜🫣
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#ND #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #IWatchTooMuchTV @autistics

#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics
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It’s not really the DEP, we don’t automatically hate them, do we? I am forever being drawn in, I don’t hate them on sight.
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It’s really Antisocialization theory, the SEP (no, not Adams’ Somebody Else’s Problem), the Suppressed Empathy Problem, the Spanking Empathy Problem.

can it really be this simple?
Stay the fuck away from people because they are all abused and your Autism means the DEP is going to make you another abuser in their minds no matter what you say or how you behave?
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics

I never chased classical music, I mean I don’t hate the Lone Ranger or the Pachelbel, but by and large it just never turned me on - I think that wasn’t it. I’ve got this French museum channel on teevee and a lot of the time it’s just, “Within the Frame,” a show just showing art and playing music, classical, I assume French music - and I don’t just not care, I hate it.
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Singing songs have context - this is just emotion and drama . . . unexplained. I don’t need your unspeaking drama, it winds me up.
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#IWatchTooMuchTV #Music #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND @autistics

the champion stood and worked his way between the academics and their desks, stepping out in front of the line and assessing the enemy, where no-one had separated themselves.
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“Is there no-one?” He roared. “Will no-one make your case? Have your people nothing to say?”
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. . . meh, that’s all I got. You finish it, @wearywulf 😘
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#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND @autistics

Now I’m not the world’s most passionate man, I got alexithymia and some of the ol’ echolola
echo-lo-lo-lola
la-la-la-lola 🎶
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#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND @autistics

I've been up
I've been down
take my word
my way 'rou-hou-ound
I been masking too mu-uch
I said, Lord take me home now
I'm just melting down to mush
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I've been bad
I've been good
heard their music
ate their foo-oo-ood
I been masking too mu-uch
I said, Lord take me home now
I'm just melting down to mush
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Take me back
Way back home
just by myself
all alo-o-one . . .
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you get it 🙄
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics

gawd I wish I could turn it off 😬
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD @autistics
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ALT

What did Bender say, I’m so embarrassed I just wish everybody else was dead 😬
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#IWatchTooMuchTV
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when an aspie prick hatches late, that is a long fall and retroactive all the way back 💔
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#ND #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic @autistics

I don’t want to single the person out, and I’m not, believe me, every normal person and most of the weirdos say what I’m about to argue with. I’m borrowing their text, though, it’s perfect, just what nearly everyone thinks.
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“I think violence is a part of human nature and could never go away. Even if you found a way to stop all physical violence, the human aggression that causes it would still exist.”
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I have a hard time accepting this, but I don’t think the majority sees anything wrong with that statement. Honestly, I think it’s built in, evolved into the majority.
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But from over here in Divergent World, what I see is an excuse never to change anything, never to stop whatever is causing the aggression. “It would still exist,” so it is beyond causality, beyond science or thought? Purely a spiritual matter?
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I’m still a toddler among the adults of Allistic science, having to ask, “Why?,” every ten seconds because, “because of Human Nature,” isn’t a real First Cause, you’re just sloughing your child off - OK, Dad, I’ll keep
it going: why, “Human Nature?” And anyway, when someone isn’t aggressive for thirty seconds, isn’t that, “Human Nature,” too?
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You have the same answer for opposite questions?
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But back to the point, the majority is so certain that aggression is natural and proper, causeless and inevitable that they will not experiment, will not learn anything further about it.
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