my attempt to understand the world has reached a point where it’s pointless to carry on with, it doesn’t mean anything to anyone what I figure out, if anyone had all the answers it still wouldn’t matter, not to everybody else.
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I got fooled about this “march of human knowledge,” deal, as though we all absorbed everything anyone ever figured out. Oh gawd.
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We learn it in social mode, we learn the NAME of the person who figured it out, Charles Darwin, Rachel Carson, Sigmund Freud. Darwin figured out evolution (and Wallace, and surely others. Me.), so Darwin knows evolution, everyone else is still talking about Human Nature. Same with Freud. 😠
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What I have figured out, I know, and so it don’t mean squat and I’ve wasted my life. Ain’t nobody asking me nuthin’ and human knowledge isn’t a thing.
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Not in NT world. I assumed too much, I give too much credit.Their nations and their laws are still based in ancient Greek paganism.
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I never chased classical music, I mean I don’t hate the Lone Ranger or the Pachelbel, but by and large it just never turned me on - I think that wasn’t it. I’ve got this French museum channel on teevee and a lot of the time it’s just, “Within the Frame,” a show just showing art and playing music, classical, I assume French music - and I don’t just not care, I hate it.
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Singing songs have context - this is just emotion and drama . . . unexplained. I don’t need your unspeaking drama, it winds me up.
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the champion stood and worked his way between the academics and their desks, stepping out in front of the line and assessing the enemy, where no-one had separated themselves.
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“Is there no-one?” He roared. “Will no-one make your case? Have your people nothing to say?”
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. . . meh, that’s all I got. You finish it, @wearywulf 😘
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Now I’m not the world’s most passionate man, I got alexithymia and some of the ol’ echolola
echo-lo-lo-lola
la-la-la-lola 🎶
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I've been up
I've been down
take my word
my way 'rou-hou-ound
I been masking too mu-uch
I said, Lord take me home now
I'm just melting down to mush
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I've been bad
I've been good
heard their music
ate their foo-oo-ood
I been masking too mu-uch
I said, Lord take me home now
I'm just melting down to mush
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Take me back
Way back home
just by myself
all alo-o-one . . .
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you get it 🙄
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gawd I wish I could turn it off 😬
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What did Bender say, I’m so embarrassed I just wish everybody else was dead 😬
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#IWatchTooMuchTV
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when an aspie prick hatches late, that is a long fall and retroactive all the way back 💔
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we are
the control group
the gene pool
the supply chain
the answer sheet
the good old days
the garden
while you are
a wrong turn
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The Carnivore diet is scientifically and medically supported for all of the Neurodivergent.
I think this knowledge SHOULD be common wisdom. No matter your issues. Mine were anxiety, autoimmune, chronic fatigue, and Burnout that rendered me unemployable.
It works for lots of things we should not be suffering from. Looking since 2016, getting better since 2019.
there’s no relationship between neurotype and dementia, right, the divergents get it at the same rate as the straight and narrows, right?
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I don’t want to single the person out, and I’m not, believe me, every normal person and most of the weirdos say what I’m about to argue with. I’m borrowing their text, though, it’s perfect, just what nearly everyone thinks.
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“I think violence is a part of human nature and could never go away. Even if you found a way to stop all physical violence, the human aggression that causes it would still exist.”
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I have a hard time accepting this, but I don’t think the majority sees anything wrong with that statement. Honestly, I think it’s built in, evolved into the majority.
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But from over here in Divergent World, what I see is an excuse never to change anything, never to stop whatever is causing the aggression. “It would still exist,” so it is beyond causality, beyond science or thought? Purely a spiritual matter?
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I’m still a toddler among the adults of Allistic science, having to ask, “Why?,” every ten seconds because, “because of Human Nature,” isn’t a real First Cause, you’re just sloughing your child off - OK, Dad, I’ll keep
it going: why, “Human Nature?” And anyway, when someone isn’t aggressive for thirty seconds, isn’t that, “Human Nature,” too?
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You have the same answer for opposite questions?
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But back to the point, the majority is so certain that aggression is natural and proper, causeless and inevitable that they will not experiment, will not learn anything further about it.
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Me, coming back with my bullshit (LOOOVE that meme):
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when an animal, humans
included experiences
abuse, or perceives abuse, they are unhappy about it, displeased, upset, perhaps angry.
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This is not “Autistic rigidity,” rather ignoring this obvious fact is Allistic rigidity, it is they who are not rolling with what is real,
not working with this fact of life,
not changing their methods due to the reality on the ground.
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The entirety of the Human sciences supports this simple
causality and the only counter argument people have against it is denial, they don’t want it to be real, so they say it isn’t and try to make everyone agree with more abuse. Unfortunately, this is working.
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They have hijacked their environment and so diverted their own evolution, and many today really cannot see this truth, this core actuarial truth, that abuse changes people.
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The whole idea of law and punishment ought to have dried up and blown away with Wallace and Darwent, the idea that the same stressors work forever, that the animal doesn’t ADAPT to law and order belongs in a pre-Darwin world. Punishment would only ever do what they hope in a static, never evolving world. Do I have to remind you, crime has not ended?
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People adapted and evolved instead of learning what the punishers wished to teach. They even adapt to prison.
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“Rigidity,” is just what one neurotype says about another. It only means type is real, that people cannot be talked out of their evolved thoughts.
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My point in it all is that your evolved thoughts are like what the Russian fox farm showed: change the phenotype, select for
something, you’re likely also changing the personality, the brain and the thoughts. The supposedly regrettable Human Nature is being unregrettably selected for, and humans are doing the selecting themselves.
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So in theory, things could change. Sigh. So far, only in theory. My experiments were
futile.
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/1 maybe
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I need something to think about and something to write but I’ve run out of anything remotely possible.
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I think I said this already, I’m obsessively trying to imagine how to show NT people the trap they’re in, but how to demonstrate, how to prove anything, the whole problem is they can’t see the proof in the first place.
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I’m looking for an analogy, cases where they can see other species inability to perceive or process, like the way wasps cannot find the open hole they entered the trap by to get out again, the way some herds or flocks can get caught up following one another to nowhere in a circle.
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Of course it falls apart, you can’t explain that first trait to the wasps or the second one to the turkeys. There’s a world of shit you can’t explain to me too.
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What I’m trying to express about myself in all this is my own shock at my own awareness of what I can’t seem to explain. I would like to somehow impart how R-worded people seem to be regarding causes, how I hear them say, “human nature,” like the low IQ aliens in Hitchhiker’s say, “Resistance is futile,” or like the gulls in Finding Nemo say, “Mine?”
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I see that expression, “human nature,” as an anti-intellectual rule, the one and only thing the totalitarian state insists can be said regarding people, any causality is some kind of treason. The slogan for a regime under which no self knowledge is permitted.
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“I hit them but it doesn’t HURT them,” is R-worded. That’s what hitting is for. If you don’t want to hurt them, why are you hitting them? If it doesn’t hurt them, what’s the point? Where’s the deterrent?
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It has consensus, but it looks really, really bad to me, logically. Like they don’t understand a word they say. I sprayed water on them, but I didn’t WET them. Something isn’t working there, rather, sense isn’t allowed in to human life.
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Sorry, FWIW
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/1 probably
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Divergent thoughts about biblical creation:
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you know, I’ve been talking about biblical creation as the beginning of NT people, but I’ve been ignoring half of the story. Of course it’s about the Fall, isn’t it. 😀🫣😬
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Off the top of my head, the first soundbite that has been careening around in it and needs to be let out is the bit from Paradise Lost, when our antihero Beelzebub declares that it is better to rule in Hell than to serve in Heaven - this to me must
be NT-ness, Allism, and it is the point of most of what I say that it is NOT better, that ruling and thinking your world is Hell makes it so, and that as someone else said, serving and thinking your world is Heaven would make that so instead.
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Off course in this story, Beelzebub is only the first to Fall into that view and that life, into that neurology.
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Not sure I’ll have more anytime soon, but 💜🤨
/1
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Current conversation has given me an idea for an #ND movie.
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Autistic hermit/monk gets a student, figures out the student is NT, and starts the young man’s religious training by beating the ever loving shit out of him, because he knows the NT won’t respect him and listen to the teaching if the teacher fails this NT test. Scenes of the master privately melting down and cursing God after the beatings . . .
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eventual success when the light comes on for the student, maybe he passes a peace test . . . 😀😇💜
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had I known what I think I do now about #ND, neurotypes, I absolutely would never have married and bred. The only reason I did was because I thought I could opt out of “normal,” childrearing and then they wouldn’t be normal.
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Because I believed the NT nonsense about everyone being the same and education having some magic power, I guess.
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Capitalism is NT hyper sociality, the focus on competition - it’s as though nothing else happens, the world is a storehouse, and the only thing going on is people competing with each other over a given, unchanging (so inexhaustible) world.
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The disappearance of the salmon means nothing in itself, it’s the same to Us as to Them - so it’s a push, “doesn’t matter,” in the competition, to a brain that sees nothing but the human social world.
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Punishment kills the rational brain, commandeers the brain for social matters - I think this is probably the paring away of connections, they lose the conflicting connections for the rational side of life. It makes
complete sense that the entire pyramid of human hierarchy, that the doctors the state pays think it’s good that all those connections that conflict with social order are “unnecessary.”
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A rational mind wouldn’t approve of trimming connections, a less social mind might call a loss of connections brain damage.
I’m sorry if anyone does read me, I know I’ve said it all before.
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Just expounding that capitalism is not chimpanzee aggression,
it is modern Allistic hypersociality - this is the point of authority and punishment, to force the mind away from the real world and insert an all consuming focus on purely human matters, and the result is they really cannot see the real world anymore and they will fight among themselves until the oxygen runs out.
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This is sort of the definition of education. Those who laud education as the answer to it all - are you under the impression people are not already educated by force about everything?
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Do you think they need school because everyone was leaving them alone, letting them develop naturally?
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“Oh, you’ve had a a rough life, drunk dad and an abusive marriage, trauma? I am sorry, that is terrible and far too common. You have my sympathy.
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Well, goodbye then.”
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Whaddaymean, ‘goodbye?’ People need to talk about these things, I need to talk about these things!
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“Yeah . . . not to me you don’t. You need to find someone of your own kind. I’m divergent, you’re traumatized - that’s a bad setup. I don’t look right, you won’t understand me, and your trauma, your hyper vigilance and your neurology will all misunderstand on the side of protecting yourself and I will become an abuser in your mind no matter what I say or do.
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It gets old fast and it’s been happening for a long time. It’s just the way it is. I’m sad, I like you, but your abusers took people like me away from you and you from me.
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I’m as angry as at them as you are, no-one can see me and I am forever alone because of this stuff - but I know from experience that to you, I am one
of THEM.
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So good luck and goodbye.”
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I cannot give up on language, it’s part of being divergent, Autistic.
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I’ve been misunderstood and unheard all my life, but despite that intellectually I have learned this about most people, my fantasies, my dreams are still always and only somehow about being able to talk to someone.
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It is simply not in my “Nature,” to imagine that the point of language is to share something other than the real world,
let alone the very opposite. I cannot accept that it is pathological to be late in learning the mechanics of lying.
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I’m convince the Autistic kids who failed the test had already learned what I finally have about most people, and they ignored the question and tried to solve the real problem instead, the puppet’s lost item. Solving the problem, finding what is lost - this is somehow a lack of empathy, while learning a clever way to steal the item - hiding the painting in the museum to be found and removed the next day, hiding the murder weapon where it will evade the first search and moving it before the detectives figure out to look there, for instance, same thing - learn how that works by the time you’re two or you’re faulty, somehow.
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I feel these Autistic test subject babies were trying to teach the researchers something.
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normal folks don’t understand or believe in neurodivergence and focus on sex and sexuality as the most important differences that people have.
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The first thoughts I remember having after my own puberty about gay people was a sort of denial, I thought maybe they just couldn’t or wouldn’t navigate the battle of the sexes, maybe the opposite sex was sort of socially unavailable, maybe if you’re not the attractive stereotype they’re looking for things are somehow easier to not play the whole game.
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Because I had only just begun, but neurological differences always made that game extremely difficult for me, even then when I was young and as pretty as I could ever be and surrounded by horny teenagers.
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Now I know ten percent are simply born gay. If we were trying to complicate matters I’d say the social and neurological differences insure that many born gay people live straight, and maybe the neurological difficulties can also more rarely have a born straight person living gay or asexual or pan, that the born gay group and the living gay group are not exactly the same bunch.
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OK, bad then good - sorry bad again:
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But if you think you’re different and you haven’t yet heard of or had to properly understand about neurodiversity, then you’re very, very likely to go to sexuality about it, aren’t you? That’s the born this way, way to be different everyone knows about.
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Honestly, I had the thoughts, I must be gay or trans, but somehow I sensed that I would still be alone in that group, in any group - and now old and hatched, hated in those groups too, I sensed that much but I wouldn’t have been quite so clear about the hate.
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Suggesting that in the absence of neurodiversity as a known possible cause for dysphoria, “queer,” may be over diagnosed, or over self-diagnosed?
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Is there some overlap in presentation? Are both sorts, queer and divergent, over represented or under represented in the same spaces?
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The community acknowledges that the two appear together, that more queer people are divergent, maybe more the other way, that more divergents are queer or non-binary, right?
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OK.
That’s enough, right?
Thoughts?
Here’s one more: goddam, shit’s complicated. 💜
Sorry.
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#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD
“Sheeple.”
you don’t understand anything and you have it all backwards. “Sheep,” is not an insult among sheep, it’s an insult among wolves, and so the people who count themselves as wolves aren’t perhaps all wrong about themselves, the error in it all is that every human wolf thinks they’re the only one, but they’re not, they all hate each other as sheep, they’re ALL wolves (in this twisted metaphor).
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Blaming the followers when every goddam one of them is leading somebody, pushing somebody, forcing their lifestyle.
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If some sheep is following, some wolf is leading, and if everyone is following, then everyone is leading too.
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But you’re agreeing with the aggressive leader side and blaming the passive passive follower side for all the trouble if you say the sheep side of humankind is the problem, seeing only half of the problem and blaming the side that appears to have less choice in it.
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Ignoring the more active and salient cause (as seen from the passive side).
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If you have a process, a way to detect malicious cheaters, then that is the process that the cheaters must and will hack, and the ones who are simply different and fail your tests and not the malicious ones you say you are trying to catch.
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i.e., the #ND weirdos get caught and hated but the fucking politicians walk right through.
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Apparently I don’t sleep
anymore. So here’s a little exploration, or a rant.
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It’s philosophy, this, I don’t do experiments or proofs, no-one would call me a scientist. An old time definition of #Philosophy, it’s not some system of grammar or a dissection of our senses’ adequacy to show us reality.
🧐💜
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I’m not a “man;” I’m #ActuallyAutistic
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I’m not white, I’m Autistic
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Whatever is wrong with white men, and there’s a lot, it’s Allism.
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If you’re Allistic and female, or Allistic and black, or Allistic and queer, you could be more of a problem than a straight white Autistic man, because your brain means more than your skin colour or your genitals or what you do with your genitals.
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I lived in a world of Allistic females and the hate and the power was theirs, not mine, they were the liars and haters in my life, not because they are women but because they are Allistic and to be Allistic is to fight. Some of
my people are gay - I confess, no black people were involved in my life, I am applying my insight after the fact regarding race, that your brain has priority over everything.
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There are surely places where black people rule and there black men surely fill all the same roles as white men do here, right? And not because they’re black, or even because they are men but because they are Allistic.
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Race and gender and sexuality are only the most important differences between people depending on your neurotype, and depending if you know about neurotypes or not - and these things seem intertwined. It seems only the #ND, the minority neurotypes know about neurodiversity.
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The majority sort doesn’t seem to see it, so long and short, mostly it is the majority type, Allistics who are left seeing the other differences as more causative of something, race, sex, etc., #NTPsychology
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White skin doesn’t make you evil, same as black skin doesn’t make you whatever some white people say black people are, neurotype and environment make you whatever you are. Psychology deals with your environment in this life, neurotype seems to be about evolution and adaptation to long term environments, types are something like multigenerational psychological . . . I can’t find a neutral or positive term, I’d use it if I had one, but . . . syndromes, or disorders.
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Neurotypes are an order/disorder, depending on your POV or a value judgement,
like that. Multigenerational trauma or not, an adaptive or maladaptive brain, but . . . real. Biological. And evolving.
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Hmmm. Question: what are people trying to convey by that, “multigenerational,” if not evolution, inheritance, and genetics? - Oh, Hell, I’ve blathered on and now you’re forgetting the point, aren’t you?
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Quick recap: race and gender ain’t it, neurotype is more foundational than any of that by an order of magnitude, and it’s only one type that doesn’t know that and fixates on all the external noise and ignores brains, especially its own. #TheoryOfMind 🙄
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1/ (gawd forbid 😬🫣)
@autistics
Is “wears a hat,” diagnostic?
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