@autistics #ActuallyAutistic the yin and yang of my board work:
(1) the president dint and vice-president are engaged in a cross between gaslighting me and blowing smoke up each other’s
(2) my consult from last week said to me ”You helped me work through this issue in ways i never thought I could."
that i can achieve the work of (2) in spite of the bullshit from (1) makes me know that i am doing good in the world
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 964 , Thursday 18/06/2026
Thursday started much earlier than I anticipated at just gone 6am. I tried to get back to sleep but gave in & was up by 06:30.
Summertime has returned to deepest, darkest Yorkshire with warm dry weather - the cats love it!
Spent most of the day in outer space. I might be addicted to Starfield, although I did take time out for meals & chores.
Final Thoughts.
Lots of little niggly things have completely ‘knocked my duck off’ today, my mood is so low this evening a limbo dancer would struggle to get any lower!
I have not got the spoons to be social tonight so folks will have to make do with a like rather than a response.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1024 , Monday 17/08/2026
Up at 06:30 but the bus that ran over me yesterday did it again! I was tempted to just go back to bed but decided that I wasn’t gonna give in totally to this bug & went downstairs for breakfast.
It has been a day of aches & little energy.
I did perk up enough to make a salad for tea to go with a huntsman pie that Mrs S got over the weekend. However the lettuce fought back & I nearly chopped the tip off my left thumb!
Final Thoughts.
This bug has drained me of energy, I hope I can beat it by Wednesday, I need to get back to the gym!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
That call screening feature on my phone that makes someone record an intro before putting the call through.
Chef’s kiss 😘👌
I’m so chill when rejecting calls now. 📵
#ADHD #AuDHD #Autistic #ActuallyAutistic @actuallyadhd @autistics
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1025 , Tuesday 18/08/2026
Another really rough night led to me sleeping in till past 8am this morning.
It has been a very quiet day, although I did do a couple of chores.
Lasagne & salad for tea, which went well with an episode of Cadfael.
Final Thoughts.
I am feeling better this evening, less achy than I have been although I am still short on energy, once more the gym goalposts move .. here is hoping Friday is the charm!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic this has a lot of potential...
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1026 , Wednesday 19/08/2026
Wednesday started at around 7am after a much better night.
I skipped the gym again but I am a lot better than I was at the start of the week!
A lovely peaceful day as Mrs S was in the office.
Final Thoughts.
Not a lot really, not looking forward to the evening temperatures over the weekend, single figures (Celsius) in AUGUST! Well I hope all the local climate change deniers take note!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1027 , Thursday 20/08/2026
Another late morning, not up until just after 8am following a rubbish night where I couldn’t sleep & struggled to get comfy because I have apparently pulled a muscle in my left thigh & knobbled my knee!
Another slow, quiet day. There were a million things I planned on doing & I managed precisely none of them!
I need to get my act into gear soon!
Final Thoughts.
Apropos to absolutely nothing I realised this evening that I still think of my parents house (well my Dad’s hose now since my mum passed in 2019 ) as ‘home’.
Where I live now is just … where I live.
When we go over to see my Dad I always think of it as ‘going home’.
Weird no?
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic introvert oriented, this shirt’s for you…
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1028 , Friday 21/08/2026
Another rough night, another late morning!
What I thought was a pulled muscle in my leg is … not!
I had a deep ache in the bones of both legs last night so I gave up & hit the codeine, which helped a lot!
So now I know what to do tonight if it kicks off again!
Another quiet day, the highlight being the stringing of a new washing line in the garden - I know, what na exciting life I lead!
Pizza for tea accompanied by the start of season 3 of Babylon 5.
Final Thoughts.
Seems the rain gods are making up for ignoring us over the first part of summer, it rained cats, dogs & small cephalopods this evening!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
I never chased classical music, I mean I don’t hate the Lone Ranger or the Pachelbel, but by and large it just never turned me on - I think that wasn’t it. I’ve got this French museum channel on teevee and a lot of the time it’s just, “Within the Frame,” a show just showing art and playing music, classical, I assume French music - and I don’t just not care, I hate it.
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Singing songs have context - this is just emotion and drama . . . unexplained. I don’t need your unspeaking drama, it winds me up.
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#IWatchTooMuchTV #Music #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND @autistics
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1029 , Saturday 22/08/2026
Well throw an acorn at me & call me a nutter, I actually managed to get some decent sleep last night - more or less a full 8 hours!
Breakfast & then chores before a couple of hours chasing around the galaxy while Mrs S was out shopping.
Caught up on a couple of Mrs S’s shows this afternoon.
Fried chicken takeaway for tea with an interesting new sci-fi movie ‘Signal One’ for accompaniment!
Final Thoughts.
Not a bad day, the world seems so much brighter for some decent kip!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
the champion stood and worked his way between the academics and their desks, stepping out in front of the line and assessing the enemy, where no-one had separated themselves.
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“Is there no-one?” He roared. “Will no-one make your case? Have your people nothing to say?”
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. . . meh, that’s all I got. You finish it, @wearywulf 😘
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#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND @autistics
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1030 , Sunday 23/08/2026
Sunday started around 07:30 after a decent nights sleep - which was nice.
Made breakfast & did some basic chores then we went across to my late MiLs place to make sure all the light bulbs worked (spoilers - 2 were replaced & more are on order) & to take down the remaining shelves to help the cleaning folk who are coming on Tuesday.
We stopped off at one of our fave eatery for lunch on the way home - it being Sunday the choice was one of 4 varieties of traditional Sunday roast. I had lamb & Mrs S had chicken - very nice we both agreed!
This afternoon was a very relaxed affair, with a double bill of ‘Cadfael’ & then the first episode of the new version of ‘Bergerac’ which was nothing like as good as what I remember of the orginal series!
Final Thoughts.
We got a lot done today & the weather was really nice so chalking it up as a win!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
CW: health, death and its causes, including self-inflicted
About six weeks ago the third episode of The Autistic Rant Hour, my podcast miniseries, was released by the Autistic Culture Podcast Network. I called it “We’ve run all the tests and there’s nothing wrong with you”, and it was about Medical Gaslighting, from both the personal and systemic perspectives, as experienced and understood by myself and my wonderful episode guest Simo_tier (pronouns: it, they).
This was by far the most resonant of the podcast’s episodes, and no wonder: Autistic adults die 6 to 15 years earlier than their peers (CW: gender-exclusive language in the cited research) and are at last 5 times more likely to die by suicide specifically because of lack of training among medical staff. One of the strongest barriers to medical care for autistic people is anxiety over prejudice by medical staff, reportedly 2-3 times more than for allistic people. And the medical gaslighting is effective: 72% of autistic participants in this research did not even know if their symptoms merited a visit to the doctor.
Commiserating with each other on air and calling for disability-solidarity was great, and I hope this episode could make some people feel less alone. Many of you responded to Simo_tier’s battle cry and shared your experiences. But what can we do to deal with these problems while we endeavor to snatch another year of autistic existence out of the jaws of death?
Juliane, a listener, replied to my Mastodon thread with the following helpful advice, and has given me permission to share it here too.
Read about it in my latest blogpost:
https://prepped.to/blog/how-to-deal-with-medical-gaslighting
#ActuallyAutistic
#MedicalGaslighting
#Health
#AutisticHealth
So much “advice” I’ve received over the years, from teachers, colleagues, employers, family, has functionally boiled down to some variant of these:
“Just be less autistic.”
“Just be less ADHD.”
“Just be more well-adapted to the society you were born into.”
“Just care more about things you don’t care about, and less about the things you do.”
“Just do the things you find hard, that I don’t. It’s easy!”
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1031 , Monday 24/08/2026
Monday started just after 6am & I got my ass down the gym!
I was reasonably impressed by the fact that I did not need to go for easier settings / weights. Whilst it was a hard session - I have been away for 2 weeks after all - it was not so hard that I had to lose any ground!
Got home & after breakfast & chores I spent a couple of hours going thru the tools that came from my late FiLs garage.
The vast majority will be going to a charity that can refurbish them & then get them to folk who can use them.
Spent the afternoon tacking a set of reoccurring crashes in Starfield … after a bit of research on whats left of the web it turns out that me hoarding everything that didn’t move out of the way was the problem - this was exacerbated by having a ship with a huge cargo hold. I sold a load of stuff & that seems to have fixed the problem. I still have a lot of stuff to get rid of but I can do that over the next few days.
Hunters pie & salad for tea.
Final Thoughts.
Not a bad day at all.
It has been sunny but not overly warm, the weather settling into a more familiar British summer pattern.
I am glad that I’m back at the gym … it is still a conscious effort to go, I have to force myself to get out & I have yet to encounter any kind of endorphin buzz. It is just hard work, but hopefully it will lead to me losing weight & being healthier!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Now I’m not the world’s most passionate man, I got alexithymia and some of the ol’ echolola
echo-lo-lo-lola
la-la-la-lola 🎶
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#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND @autistics
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic watching an issue unfold at work where the issue of “how" something was done is more important than “what’ was done...
…and the distinction seems to be lost of those participating in the debate
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1032 , Tuesday 25/08/2026
Up early - at just before 7am to see if Mrs S wanted me to go & let the cleaners in at her mums, as it happens she didn’t so while I had got up early it was somewhat of a relief not to spend most of the morning on another MiL related task.
Chores & breakfast were followed by a day of relaxing interspersed with a few odd jobs. Nothing too major because my brain was like ‘No way mate’ when I presented it with anything more difficult than some light tidying up.
I gave Alice a good brush today - it is, like cleaning out the litter tray - a job that apparently only I can do. I have to be very careful as Alice is very skittish & wary so one has to let her get very comfy & add lots of stroking & love.
We had fried garlic sausage & mushrooms with an egg& potato tortilla Mrs S got at the weekend.
Wasn’t bad, but I’m glad Mrs S stepped up & did the dishes because there were double the normal amount! (Although some basic rearrangement of the dishes in the dishwasher would have saved her washing the frying pan but she had done it before I could say anything.
Final Thoughts.
Ugg back to the gym in the morning!
Also given the amount of fur that came off Alice how is she still the same size!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic about 25% of my job is providing people copies of documents they should already have
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