@actuallyautistic @autistics #ActuallyAutistic sometimes i hate having the predictive pattern autistic trait…
…just received word on a change at work i saw coming 2 years ago that will again lead to someone failing upward all for being “socially acceptable”…
…can't wait until next month when that part is confirmed too
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 954 , Monday 08/06/2026
Monday started early as it was a gym day.
It has to be said that I’m finding that the gym would be less traumatic if there were less people in there - I had to re arrange my gym routine again to cater for other folk!
I know that this seems somewhat selfish but it breaks my brain a little bit when it happens!
Got home & then breakfast & chores happened.
The rest of the day has been spent on NMS missions & exploring a tiny bit of Mars (using actual NASA data generated landscapes) in Starfield.
Final Thoughts.
Mrs S used her ‘study’ for the 1st time in anger today & appears to be very happy with it so that’s good!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic recently made the mistake of commenting on an IG post and i took issue with someone calling autism a disorder…
…i was then scolded that the "community" considers disorder and disability to be the same thing…
…i responded that disorder should be replaced with condition since disorder is inherently negative and leads to othering…
…am i alone in thinking disorder is not the same as disability?
Having poor interception and alexithymia (not being aware of my body /emotions) means it's difficult for me to know that I'm getting overwhelmed and close to a meltdown until it's nearly inevitable.
I've only recently figured out some of the signs:
- Intrusive thoughts increase in intensity and violence
- More angry rumination
- Misophonia gets worse
- My shoulders are up, my fingers tapping
- I get really sleepy
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1023 , Sunday 16/08/2026
Sunday started very late at gone 8am after a very rough night filled with painful arms & legs & feeling cold enough to need a blanket & bed socks on a warm evening.
I think this is related to feeling rough Thursday night into Friday morning, although I did think that was done with!
Today has been a day of no energy, aches & chills - can one actually have cold flushes, because I have had a few thru the day!
I hope that some sleep tonight will leave me well enough to go to the gym in the morning!
Final Thoughts.
No thoughts, just cold flushes!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Ooooops, in my (continued) manky state I forgot to post this last night! 🙄🤦♂️
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic i told the board i do not have the bandwidth or capacity to plan our summer retreat...
...and i am flooded with crap like this:
"I can support. Let me know what I can do to help.”
...the fancy dress version of weaponized incompetence methinks
In a peak move of adulting, I have decided not to do my laundry today. I simply can't be arsed. It has been a rough week heat wise and that therefore means the whole being able to breath wise, what with my COPD, not to mention sleep wise. So, no laundry for me today, even though it is laundry day.
I feel no need to justify this decision, or berate myself over it. After all, allowing myself to not do things is just as important as doing things, in terms of my well-being and management of my needs. Something that we can all be prone to forgetting I think.
Also, because this decision falls squarely into the following two boxes,
Self-care that is choosing not to.
And
Knowing that this can genuinely wait.
Both of which are often not given the importance they are due.
(For further context. I use a communal laundry room. So to do some requires that I get dressed, leave my flat, go down to the floor below and risk all the peopling that could take place, if I am unlucky. As well as having to remember to return for the laundry once the cycle is complete and risk peopling again.)
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1010 , Monday 03/08/2026
Monday started early & with a distinct struggle!
Not been feeling the full shilling the last few days & I felt it in the gym today, I persevered but was not at my best.
After breakfast & chores I tackled the first 3 of the toolboxes I brought back from my late FiL’s place.
I also did some digging & there is a UK charity that takes old tools, renovates them & then sends them to 3rd world countries. Perfect for the tools I won’t be able to keep!
I was totally drained after 3 boxes so called it a day & went roaming around the galaxy again.
Chicken thighs & salad for tea - rather nice even if I do say so myself!
Final Thoughts.
I’m not sure how much of this malaise is physical & how much is a MH thing. It seems like an extension of the whole not being able to concentrate on reading.
Writing the diary tonight was a conscious effort.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
once again a night in which i wake up near overload because i am too hot, everything feels wrong and i just want to crawl out of my skin.
heatwave after heatwave, i am withering in this new reality. i cannot fathom, that this is only the beginning and it will only ever get worse.
as if life was not fucking hard enough already.
@autistics @actuallyadhd #autistic #actuallyautistic #heatwave #actuallyaudhd
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1052 , Monday 14/09/2026
Monday started early - as Mondays do.
Down the gym, took it a bit easier today because I had a few worrying twinges in my chest over the weekend, I think I may have pushed the envelope a bit too far last week.
Daily chores & breakfast when I got home.
I decided to pull up my big boys trousers around 10ish & called TWAM’s head office - where a very nice lady gave me lots of excuses & gave me the contact numbers of their local collectors.
While I was on a roll I called the first on the list who was not at home, but the 2nd attempt was far more successful & a meet was arranged for 11:30.
Leapt semi athletically into the car & got may ass across to my late MiLs.
Long story short tools are donated & another task is ticked off dealing with my MiL’s estate!
Got home & after lunch I tackled cleaning the washing machine as we had enough sunshine to provide the power for the cleaning cycle.
Finally relaxed around 2pm & hit the PS5.
Quiche & salad for tea with the last of the strawberries with a dollop of ice cream!
Final Thoughts.
Not a bad day at all, I hate using the phone & it takes a lot to place a call. Also not overly happy with dealing with strangers. But needs must & I am really pleased that I faced the dial tone demons & that my FiL’s tools will now have a 2nd lease of life!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
ah, there’s a thought, some of the “stupid decisions,” I made as a child, refusing to learn script, giving up on chess after losing a game or two - if I was unaware of my diversity now, I’d see a normal kid making weird decisions - but now, considering my divergence and spoon theory, I can maybe see that those were extreme decisions made in something like self defense, I simply didn’t want to spend the spoons or didn’t have them at the time. And maybe I can forgive. 💜
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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #ND
RE: https://mastodon.social/@filmfreakmafia/117123826199083809
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic David Mitchell's John Taylor is an excellent autistic coded character…
…but i think the character is just undiagnosed, personally
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic for decade before i was diagnosed...
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic but what i am tired of doing so...
Send complaints to all the 15 publications that hounded Jason Arday in one go. Also a IPSO complaint.
https://newscord.org/action/jason-arday-pile-on
#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic
There has been absolutely no research I can find that explores if autists are more likely to be vegan or vegetarian than the general population. I find this extraordinary.
If you are autistic, (either clinically or self diagnosed) are you vegan?
#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #ActuallyAutistic #vegan #VeganFood #AnimalRights
This morning there was a situation, that showed me once more how differently people experience sensory input, especially autistic and allistic people.
My personal assistant accidentally arrived one hour too early and because I had to finish some routines, I asked her if she wants to wait on the balcony. She agreed and then we had the following conversation:
Me: "It's already very hot in the sun."
She: "I can endure the sun."
Me: "Ok, do you have sunglasses?"
She: "I don't need sunglasses."
Me [big autistic eyes]: There's such a loud noise from the construction work nearby. Do you have headphones?"
She: "That's not a problem. I don't need headphones."
Me: 😯
When I opened the balcony door 20 minutes later, it felt like opening the gate to hell. These 20 minutes would have probably caused a meltdown for me. For her it was just a relaxed start into the working day.
I'm still trying to raise money for floss and some toothpaste. I also could really use grocery money.
My goal is $230, anything helps 💕🥰
etrans: tasiathereader@gmail.com
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/ourinsatiabesouls
#BlackMutualAid #MutualAidRequest
#BlackMastodon #queermutualaid
#HelpFolksLive2026 #Queercrowdfund
#disability #disabilityaid #actuallyautistic #DisabilityCrowdFund #MutualAid
@mutual_aid @mutual_aid@starflower.space @MutualAidVisibility @anarchomutual @blackfedi
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1012 , Wednesday 05/08/2026
Wednesday started early & it was a real struggle to get out of bed. I had a rubbish night & struggled to get to sleep until the wee small hours!
Despite yesterday’s events & the lack of sleep I managed to get my ass into gear & down to the gym.
It was a challenging gym session, not only because I was tired & out of sorts but also because I had to break my routine because others were using the kit. It’s not their fault obviously but it does make a difference.
Got home & breakfast was followed by chores.
I read a report about the effects of eating from heated plastic containers over the weekend & one of the things it mentioned was an increased risk of thyroid problems. Mrs S & I have both encountered thyroid issues this year & so this was the catalyst that has driven us to use glassware instead of plastic in future.
To support this move we bought a 20 piece set from Costco™ - WARNING it seems that the lids are counted as ‘pieces’! I was not amused when I discovered this & will be saying as much when the inevitable request for a review hits my email inbox!
Anyhow I had a massive culling session today & while I have kept some of our existing plastic ware for storage & prep work the bulk is history!
This afternoon I finished going thru the toolboxes that came from my late FiL’s house. At some point I will have to find homes for the tools I am keeping (they are all sharing a cardboard box at the moment) but that is a job for another day!
Chicken skewers for tea with the last of the salad from the weekend. Very nice!
Final Thoughts.
A better day than I thought it would be & more productive too!
Tomorrow maybe a challenge - the current plan is to drop Mrs S off at the office then drive thru to my late MiL’s house & continue work in the garage - I must remember to take some cans of pop with me because there is nothing in the way of beverage prep in the house any more!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic the yin and yang of my board work:
(1) the president dint and vice-president are engaged in a cross between gaslighting me and blowing smoke up each other’s
(2) my consult from last week said to me ”You helped me work through this issue in ways i never thought I could."
that i can achieve the work of (2) in spite of the bullshit from (1) makes me know that i am doing good in the world
How did other #actuallyautistic #autistic fellows learn additional languages? I need to learn Danish. I feel like I need to focus on grammar and vocabulary first (i.e. written language) to be able to think complete sentences fluently and understand what I read, before being able to transition to speaking and listening.
But in Danish, all resources, schools, and teachers force spoken first. This had made learning the language a pain for me.
I am wondering if this is a me thing or if others are the same? If anyone finds this relatable, how did you get past it? How did you succeed on your language learning endeavors? #askautistic
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 964 , Thursday 18/06/2026
Thursday started much earlier than I anticipated at just gone 6am. I tried to get back to sleep but gave in & was up by 06:30.
Summertime has returned to deepest, darkest Yorkshire with warm dry weather - the cats love it!
Spent most of the day in outer space. I might be addicted to Starfield, although I did take time out for meals & chores.
Final Thoughts.
Lots of little niggly things have completely ‘knocked my duck off’ today, my mood is so low this evening a limbo dancer would struggle to get any lower!
I have not got the spoons to be social tonight so folks will have to make do with a like rather than a response.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1024 , Monday 17/08/2026
Up at 06:30 but the bus that ran over me yesterday did it again! I was tempted to just go back to bed but decided that I wasn’t gonna give in totally to this bug & went downstairs for breakfast.
It has been a day of aches & little energy.
I did perk up enough to make a salad for tea to go with a huntsman pie that Mrs S got over the weekend. However the lettuce fought back & I nearly chopped the tip off my left thumb!
Final Thoughts.
This bug has drained me of energy, I hope I can beat it by Wednesday, I need to get back to the gym!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
That call screening feature on my phone that makes someone record an intro before putting the call through.
Chef’s kiss 😘👌
I’m so chill when rejecting calls now. 📵
#ADHD #AuDHD #Autistic #ActuallyAutistic @actuallyadhd @autistics
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