insomnia
“Wow,” I said this morning, “I slept through my alarm, but caught completely up on my sleep!”
And since the universe loves balance…naturally here I am at 3am having severe #insomnia
Random thoughts & feeling energised in a knackered sort of way. If I was less knackered & not aiming for the end of day wind down I'd get of my backside & do things.
If this foes turn into a solid bit of insomnia, maybe I should use it as it'll mean that I won't get nothing done tomorrow.
Hello insomnia, my old frenemy.
#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Life #Sleep #Insomnia #SleepProblems
#SocialMediaDetox #Newsdetox
You know you have to go offline completely, at least for a while, when
- it is very difficult to get some sleep at all #insomnia
- and if so the "dreams" are nightmares in dystopian scenarios of violent suppression, hunting down people...
while in real life you personally not even close to live in a warzone or are a member of any "targeted group" - yet.
(Am white, senior, male, not "poor"..)
So i'm taking a break. All that horrible shit will go on anyway. 😒
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Ever had one of those days where, it's been so frelling long that you've forgotten what it's like to not be in burnout but you're also just mad at everything because there's no way out of burnout?
No official diagnosis & your GP threw out the preliminary test that said you're a good candidate for autism that you got years ago. The waiting list is impossibly long so by the time you:
1) Pluck up the dice / spoons to face the GP (I'm still working on it 😣)...
2) Get an appointment & (by a miracle) maybe still have the dice / spoons...
3) Actually persuade the GP an AuDHD diagnosis is what you need...
4) Jump through whatever hoops to get the preliminaries sorted...
5) Get the green light for getting a diagnosis...
... You'll be waiting so long, you won't need it anymore as you're too old to work & are on minimum pension.
My messed up bodyclock doesn't help either.
Oh, it's you Depression... 😫... Just what I need 😡😩.
I hate it when I give myself reality checks 😔.
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#MindFog #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons
#SelfCare #Depression
#Life #Sleep #Insomnia #SleepProblems