One of the saddest things to witness online is people going back and forth between identifying as ADHD or autistic because of descriptions of the experience and doubting because of "clinical", extreme or one-sided descriptions.
It's especially sad, when people seem to develop a mental block to understanding themself and connecting with others because of it.
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Question for my fellow autistics of the fediverse.
Do you see EVERYTHING when you walk into a room for the first time?
The painting, and the crack in the wall next to it.
The plaid chair in the corner, and the dog hair behind the left front leg.
The vase and the faces. (in the figure-ground, or Rubin, vase picture)
I'm reading Leidy Klotz's new book, In A Good Place and he's saying things like, "we all miss most of the details when we enter a space. We see one thing then everything else dissolves into the background." and I just want to scream at the page.
Or this one:
"Our bodies keep responding to sensory inputs even when our minds have gotten in the habit of ignoring them."
Is it just me, or do our (autistic) minds NEVER get in the habit of ignoring sensory inputs?!
In Hiding, a short story by Wilmar H. Shiras, written in 1948, is such a good depiction of autistic experience, of that necessity to mask, of being accused of lying about being able to do something just because the accusers can’t conceive the fact that you can do something they can’t, of existing within your solitude taking joy in books, learning and creating
If you also read that short story, do you also feel it relatable?
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I done blogged again. Sorry.
This one's about masking. Specifically, why I think the discourse around it is a bit one-sided. Some of my masks are genuinely useful. Some of them I actively like. The entertainer one in particular has been putting in a shift lately.
https://theaardvark.co.uk/in-defence-of-the-neurodivergent-mask.html
I found out that I am AuDHD here… and my therapist confirmed that self diagnosis. I am grateful to the @autistics community for helping me understand myself better. This was a gift that I wasn’t expecting. I am happy to talk to anyone who is interested in talking to me about this reality. #AuDHD @autistics
I generally am quite a clumsy person, but I just realized my clumsiness gets way worse when I am overwhelmed. Got to spend four days on the Easter holidays with my nephew - and till the end of the week it’s like clumsiness x10. Everything falls from my hands, I almost drowned my phone two times, accidentally broke several plates, a glass and a ceramic pot lid, flipped several dishes and bumped many things. I’m like a walking disaster by now, so I just am sitting on my sofa trying to not touch anything fragile or expensive till I get enough of my alone time.
Did you also noticed being much more clumsy when you are overwhelmed and not having enough alone time?
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It seems to be quite a common thing among #neurodivergent people - to not want to be perceived.
I just realized that for me that is not about the perception per se.
It’s about being (possibly) judged. Not even necessarily aloud, not even necessarily by glance.
Just knowing they may judge me deep in their head/heart/soul if I am less than perfect(or even if I am too perfect, doesn’t matter). Not a fear of fail even - fear of judgement.
I don’t have problems with very small kids or animals observing me while I am doing something. But anybody I see as capable of judging makes me feel uncomfortable perceived.
Is it similar for others or is it specifically #RSD talking?
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