Karen from my local Social Security Office tried to bully me.
I was at my local Social Security office applying for survivors benefits and, out of nowhere, Karen just had to yell in the back about how my account needed extra scrutiny because I was a sneaky person.
I guess she's still holding a grudge over my fax outsmarting?
But she interrupted the lengthy interview to interrogate me about my mailing address. My mailing address is a snail mail to email system, because the American Social Security administration isn't fully accessible and still, still, sends documents via paper, or on antiquated CDs with document files on the CDs. I don't like CDs lying around my house, so I don't have that option. I don't know enough Braille, yet, to read the Braille notices, but her condescension was sucking the air out of the room.
A 20 minute back and forth ensued, wherein she railed about how I was not allowed to have a mailing address that's different from my physical address. My calm but annoyed rebukes were proof, in her eyes, that I should not be treated with kindness.
She loved making me feel small, in front of all her workers.
But it is true. Fellow minorities stick up for each other, sometimes.
Luckily, other workers saw through her bullshit and clapped when she ranted about how I was the reason the fax machine hasn’t been working as it once did because of my malicious compliance.
Still, I was no badass, in person, I'm afraid. I was tired. I was worn down. I didn't have the publications on hand so had to recall them from memory. This isn't easy to do when one is tired. I think the minority workers knew what she was doing because many came over to assist the new girl, I suspect, speed up the applications.
I was grateful they didn't ask to detail the family abuse, they just asked me how long I’d been separated from my mother and how long has it been since I initiated no contact.
I was more grateful for that grace than they could ever know.
Background. https://sightlessscribbles.com/posts/the-paperwork-flood/
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