It’s not even noon and I had such an intensive and inspiring day so far.
I got up at 2:30 am and called a friend who is a night owl, just to realize that I am not able to make phone calls today, he was very tired, so we decided to talk later and I switched to chatting with a friend from another time zone until he had to go bed.
The chat reminded me oft a song from the past (music by John Miles), so I started listen to it while processing the chat. Then I recorded several voice messages and started to make a playlist for another friend who spends a lot of time on the train today and “don’t wants people in her head while listening to music”, while switching to listening to “music” by John Miles in between until I was in a listening to this one song over and over again mode. All this included several pacing and dancing sessions culminating in exploring how fast in circles my office chair is able to spin.
As the chat was still open on my laptop I started to think about a good German word with a “Z”, because my friend is interested in the German language and phonology. I recorded and typed “Zufriedenheit” (satisfaction/contentment) and found it interesting that it contains the word “Frieden”, which means peace. As words have a very strong effect on me, I started to calm down a little bit, which immediately changed when I realized that it is not only 7:30 am already, but also November 24th which meant that my online-therapy session at 9 am was actually today, not tomorrow, so I started my morning routine, went for a walk with Lumi and gave him a good brush afterwards. I just had enough time left to have breakfast, listening to the song again on the balcony and feeding my crow friend.
At the beginning of my therapy session my therapist told me that I scored very high in my ADHD assessment last week, so I am officially AuDHD now. What a surprise.
She is so amazing, I will write another post about the session itself, but it ended with the word “zufrieden”.
#AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #neurodivergent