I cannot give up on language, it’s part of being divergent, Autistic.
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I’ve been misunderstood and unheard all my life, but despite that intellectually I have learned this about most people, my fantasies, my dreams are still always and only somehow about being able to talk to someone.
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It is simply not in my “Nature,” to imagine that the point of language is to share something other than the real world,
let alone the very opposite. I cannot accept that it is pathological to be late in learning the mechanics of lying.
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I’m convince the Autistic kids who failed the test had already learned what I finally have about most people, and they ignored the question and tried to solve the real problem instead, the puppet’s lost item. Solving the problem, finding what is lost - this is somehow a lack of empathy, while learning a clever way to steal the item - hiding the painting in the museum to be found and removed the next day, hiding the murder weapon where it will evade the first search and moving it before the detectives figure out to look there, for instance, same thing - learn how that works by the time you’re two or you’re faulty, somehow.
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I feel these Autistic test subject babies were trying to teach the researchers something.
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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #PuppetTest #ND #NTPsychology
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I miss being in the autistic online community. Especially when the mastodon migration (from Twitter) took place, it was pretty lively here. And I learned a lot. Community being the best expert / counselor on all things neurodivergence. But after while I felt I had heard most of the things that we say to each other. Read a lot of interesting research that is being posted, discovered a lot of concepts and traits and views, that had given me a pretty diverse picture of our divergence. And there are so many other things, that interest me. But I miss the atmosphere. The mutual support. I was reading autistic/neurodivergent stuff exclusively. It was the atmosphere, that was most healing.
I wonder. Often this kind of connection is forged by shared suffering. And I wonder, why that is. Maybe we have this amount of suffering in our world because we do not understand how to connect. How to be one. And only suffering gets us there.
I want a mutual support - society. Do we really need to suffer this much in order to understand? @autistics #ActuallyAutistic
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #ThatAwkwardAutisticMoment when your answer to a question becomes #AnInconvenientTruth
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic so when does an employer showing “concern” for your welfare begin crossing the line?
co-worker is out of the office for a personal issue and after needed to extend their tome out by a couple of days, “resources” have been sent to her email (as if they are checking her fucking workload email).
to me, this feels like overreach, but then again i’m not one to overshare at work.
but that is then viewed as “not being a team player.”
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic counting down the days until i am accused of something because i refuse to stay quiet and let an individual manipulate a resource for their one personal gain
Are there any autistic writing communities out there?
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic i call it ethical standards, but i’m supposedly too rigid in my thinking…
normal folks don’t understand or believe in neurodivergence and focus on sex and sexuality as the most important differences that people have.
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The first thoughts I remember having after my own puberty about gay people was a sort of denial, I thought maybe they just couldn’t or wouldn’t navigate the battle of the sexes, maybe the opposite sex was sort of socially unavailable, maybe if you’re not the attractive stereotype they’re looking for things are somehow easier to not play the whole game.
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Because I had only just begun, but neurological differences always made that game extremely difficult for me, even then when I was young and as pretty as I could ever be and surrounded by horny teenagers.
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Now I know ten percent are simply born gay. If we were trying to complicate matters I’d say the social and neurological differences insure that many born gay people live straight, and maybe the neurological difficulties can also more rarely have a born straight person living gay or asexual or pan, that the born gay group and the living gay group are not exactly the same bunch.
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OK, bad then good - sorry bad again:
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But if you think you’re different and you haven’t yet heard of or had to properly understand about neurodiversity, then you’re very, very likely to go to sexuality about it, aren’t you? That’s the born this way, way to be different everyone knows about.
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Honestly, I had the thoughts, I must be gay or trans, but somehow I sensed that I would still be alone in that group, in any group - and now old and hatched, hated in those groups too, I sensed that much but I wouldn’t have been quite so clear about the hate.
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Suggesting that in the absence of neurodiversity as a known possible cause for dysphoria, “queer,” may be over diagnosed, or over self-diagnosed?
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Is there some overlap in presentation? Are both sorts, queer and divergent, over represented or under represented in the same spaces?
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The community acknowledges that the two appear together, that more queer people are divergent, maybe more the other way, that more divergents are queer or non-binary, right?
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OK.
That’s enough, right?
Thoughts?
Here’s one more: goddam, shit’s complicated. 💜
Sorry.
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@autistics
#ActuallyAutistic #ND #AuDHD
Actually a sensible article about the possibility of autism being separated in different diagnoses again, despite the slightly clickbaity headline.
#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic
RE: https://mastodon.social/@filmfreak75/117527420457167065
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic a real life example of this just happened to me moments ago…
…and so i share the following:
You [asked the question], and you gotta let the whole [answer] play out. —Dave, Ant-man and the Wasp
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1098 , Friday 30/10/2026
Well today has been another uneventful day.
It was a dank & very foggy morning - I must put a cloth in to wipe the outside of the windows - it’s flippin cold winding them down to see out of now that winter is on its way!
Went to the gym but had to cut it a little short as Mrs S wanted to get into the office early.
Really do not know where today has gone! I blinked & it was tea time!
Pizza & ‘Babylon 5’ this evening - a most excellent way to end the day!
Final Thoughts.
Days whisk by at light speed at the moment.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1101 , Monday 02/11/2026
Monday started early & I was suffering in the torture chamber that is the gym by 07:15.
A mostly quiet day once the chores were done.
Mrs S finished early & we ventured down to Costco™ around 4pm.
It was super busy for a Monday although we did find a parking space without too much trouble.
Cornish pasty with baked beans for tea - quick & easy! Then a naughty mini cheesecake each for dessert!
Final Thoughts.
Not a bad day although no doubt all that peopling will catch up with me tomorrow!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1078 , Saturday 10/10/2026
Saturday started surprisingly late as I slept thru until just before 8am - I must have been knackered last night!
Had breakfast & did my chores then did a bit more prep work on the radiator shelf.
I had ordered some nuts & bolts to complete the job for today but they never turned up!
Perhaps they will arrive tomorrow.
Otherwise it was a fairly normal Saturday.
Final Thoughts.
We put the heating on today, just for a little bit but it seems Autumn is finally getting its act into gear.
Obviously it rained this evening when there was a high chance of seeing aurora in the skies overhead! One day I will get to see them!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Heute Morgen bin ich mal wieder mit ziemlich unsinniger Angst vor der Welt und dem Leben aufgewacht und versuche seitdem irgendwie in den Tag zu finden.
Wenn *das* mal aufhören würde, das wäre schön.
#ActuallyAutistic @autistics
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic no maybe about it…
...in fact, it’s quite cathartic
“Sheeple.”
you don’t understand anything and you have it all backwards. “Sheep,” is not an insult among sheep, it’s an insult among wolves, and so the people who count themselves as wolves aren’t perhaps all wrong about themselves, the error in it all is that every human wolf thinks they’re the only one, but they’re not, they all hate each other as sheep, they’re ALL wolves (in this twisted metaphor).
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Blaming the followers when every goddam one of them is leading somebody, pushing somebody, forcing their lifestyle.
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If some sheep is following, some wolf is leading, and if everyone is following, then everyone is leading too.
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But you’re agreeing with the aggressive leader side and blaming the passive passive follower side for all the trouble if you say the sheep side of humankind is the problem, seeing only half of the problem and blaming the side that appears to have less choice in it.
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Ignoring the more active and salient cause (as seen from the passive side).
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#ND #Philosophy #NTPsychology #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic @autistics
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic i agree with the first part, still on the fence re the second part
I just became more aware of a technique to balance my autistic and ADHD needs, my needs for stability, a sensory safe space, safe activity etc. while at the same time needing interesting input for my hyperactive brain to avoid inner unrest, that I practiced mostly subconsciously in the past and will use more mindful in the future.
To balance these needs I deliberately choose a sensory safe environment like my apartment, but change the perspective, like lying or sitting on the floor for example. When it comes to audio input, listening to a different song from the album with the one I currently listening to on repeat is an option, so is slightly modifying an old playlist with new tracks.
There are a lot of other examples, but the principle is always the same. It’s slightly changing familiar, sensory safe input to create new, but not overwhelming data for the bodymind, for the nervous system, for the brain.
Do other AuDHD people use this technique to balance their nervous system too? I am curious.
Heeeey @autistics #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD I just got out of the shower and had something on my mind.
How long are your showers? If you have a reason for the duration (sensory overload, require assistance, etc) feel free to reply with it if you're comfortable. I'll share mine.
If you're baths-only feel free to move along. I only get 4 options.
Options: (choose one)
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic nothing like being infantilized en mass at work by someone who could not figure their way out of a paper bag
RE: https://mastodon.social/@filmfreak75/117350427054359055
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic was not sure i wanted to add this to this thread, but i am that pissed off…
…this is an excerpt from another admin who portends to manage the rest of us:
“If you haven’t already started to populate your directors’ 2027 calendar with their recurring meetings, October is the perfect time to do so”
…to confirm this is another admin who has no actual supervisory authority over any other admin, but acts like they manage the rest of us…
…am i overreacting?