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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 1013 , Thursday 06/08/2026
I was up at 7am & after a quick bite of breakfast was cast into the day!
I did my chores, dropped Mrs S off at the office & then on to my late MiLs.
I spent the morning there, working in the garage & then rescuing a few things from the house.
Got back for a late lunch then spent some time finding temporary homes for the stuff that I had brought back.
Managed to squeeze in a couple of hours on the PS5 before I had to go & collect Mrs S.
Made us a simple tea - chicken kievs, baked beans & and bread roll each.
Final Thoughts.
Not a bad day, but I will be very glad when we are finally done with my late MiLs house at the end of next week!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 781 , Wednesday 17/12/2025
Wednesday stated at just before 8am, despite a decent nights sleep I woke knackered.
I felt bunged up & snuffly this morning, I think I've caught a bug again, I’m feeling cold despite the heating which is always a hint that all is not as it should be in this run down temple of a body.
It's been a quiet day, it seems that what I actually need to have such a day is a ripening bout of man flu.
Watched 'Infinite' with Mark Whalberg, Chiwetel Ejiofor & Sophie Cookson. A bit of turn your brain off fun with nods to the Matrix.
Then, for the first time in a while I actually spent a couple of hours playing 'Atomfall' on the PS5.
Did us a ham & cheese tagliatelle in the nukebox for tea because I had neither the energy or inclination to do anything more exciting.
That said I have got a cottage pie out of the freeze to bung in the air fryer tomorrow night & I'll make some gravy to go with.
Final Thoughts.
I seem to be getting even bug going & it's somewhat of a catch 22 situation, I go out & catch a bug because I don't go out very often (once a week at times), catching bug reinforces the desire not to go out ... rinse & repeat!
Nest year I am gonna have to get a handle on this hermit thing ... assuming I make it that long & don't catch something fatal in the meantime!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
I have a song that I hate stuck in my head. I have no idea why. I haven't heard it since I was a kid.
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 782 , Thursday 18/12/2025
Thursday started earlier than I hoped - first at around 5 past 5 in the very am because Mrs S had set the washing machine to start too early & then, having gotten back to sleep at around 7am because next door seems to have bought the kids a heard of elephants for an early Christmas present! …. BAH HUMBUG!
It’s been a mostly quiet day, I rang my dad but he was busy & said he would ring me back … it’s 21:21 & I’m still waiting. Hey ho.
The lurgy has mostly gone now but it did have a fun day of having me visit the ‘throne’ room on a regular basis thru the day! Now I just feel drained & exhausted.
Simon the plumber rang - apparently he wants to buy the old ch filter off me, he offered me a free service on the new boiler initially but given the givens I’m not sure we will be using him in future. I’ll let him sweat for a day or so, I mean fairs fair!
Final Thoughts.
A quiet day, I hope that I can get over this bug before Christmas Eve!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 932 , Sunday 17/05/2026
A quiet Sunday.
Final Thoughts.
No thoughts worth sharing.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
A change of scenery can be good for the mind 💚
On Thursday, it rained non-stop, but I enjoyed a day out in Stafford. My friend and I had a walk around the castle grounds and wandered through the historic market town. More importantly, it was a chance to escape the daily routine and have a long chat with someone who has a brain that is wired in a similar way to mine. The best thing, however, was the absence of crowds 😁
#neurodivergent #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #adhd #neurospicy #mentalhealth #anxiety
Yesterday was the first day of work after my holiday break. The break was really needed and hit the spot. After the work day, I thought that I was quite efficient already for the first day. Then I stopped my thinking. That's internalized ableism talking, isn't it?!
Discussed this with my spouse at home. She reminded me that the idea of work is to "be efficient", to get tasks done. While I agreed -- and not going to whatever efficiency means and whether an autistic (or any!) person can be efficient on a given day -- I said that where I went wrong was with the judgment of how efficient I was. This is quite usual for me. Now, I said, I should just do the tasks I do and not think about efficiency as such.
I instantly saw a parallel with Zen Buddhist thinking. One should be and do without judgment. Let's see if I can start bringing this thinking to my work. Dismantling internalized ableism bit by bit.
#ActuallyAutistic #InternalizedAbleism #ZenBuddhism @autistics
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 802 , Wednesday 07/01/2026
Wednesday started early, around 7am.
After breakfast I put on my suit, something I haven't done since 2019 & it showed in the fact that it took several attempts to get my tie to the right length.
We got to my MiL's house in good time & the Weather Witches smiled on us giving us a day that was very cold but very sunny with blue skies.
The funeral service was beautiful, Kevin, the vicar, gave a perfect eulogy for Gloria and everything went to plan.
He read out my poem ‘Guardians’ & did it proud, he was right it suited the occasion well.
We went out for lunch afterwards, stopping at a pub I've not been to for many years where we enjoyed a delicious meal.
We hid away from the world this afternoon, just taking comfort in each other’s company.
Final Thoughts.
As Kevin said, the jigsaw puzzle of my late Mother in Law, Gloria, is now complete & we will remember her forever.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic my philosophy re after hours socialization with co-workers...
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 783 , Friday 19/12/2025
Friday started at around 7am, I tried to sleep longer but neither my brain nor next doors kids would let me.
Felt a lot better today so did my chores & then around 10am ventured forth in search of victuals for the Christmas fortnight.
Man, the whole of Yorkshire seemed to have descended into our little part of deepest, darkest Yorkshire! Stupidly amounts of traffic when there should be 3 cars & the odd bus! (Ok maybe a few more but not that many more!)
Made it to Sainsbury’s ™ & had a good forage - largely snack type food, our master plan is for a day long buffet on our first Christmas Day with no commitments!
We used to see Mrs S’s family on Christmas Day & my family on either Boxing Day or New Year’s Day depending. Sometimes in the middle if folks were on holiday or in work.
This year Christmas Eve & Christmas Day are ours, then we are crossing the hills to see my family on Boxing Day.
Spent a couple of hours roaming the aisles then headed home for lunch. Again stupid levels of traffic so I made for the back routes as soon as I could.
Spent the afternoon recovering by playing an extended session of Atomfall - heck there is so much to this game, it maybe smaller than Fallout but even so there are loads of places to find!
Had a Chinese takeaway for tea (chicken with green peppers & black bean sauce) as we have fallen out with the pizza place.
Finished the evening half watching a Kavanagh QC while having some fun on here.
Final Thoughts.
Not a bad day, although I once again proved that I can resist anything but temptation!
I really think I have impulse control issues.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic
If anyone else has had this experience of their kid's (or their own) blood sugar* suddenly being all wobbly during puberty, can you please reassure me that it won't last forever?? 😭
*Not 100% sure that's what is happening but it's the best theory we have - he has growth spurts and it seems impossible to get enough fuel into him to keep him going without these spells of feeling cold/brain shutting down. Sugar doesn't help, only complex carbs + protein.
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic but remember, reframing does not mean revising to better suit your current narrative…
Very interesting paper from Emily #Casanova and Trenton Holliday on the implications of #Neanderthal-derived SNPs in #autism susceptibility
Emily is #actuallyautistic
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 785 , Sunday 21/12/2025
Sunday started around 07\:15 as opposed to the more normal 08:00 because next door have really just totally forgotten that we exist I think.
I hope they go away over Christmas & come back in the early hours so that I can return the favour later that morning!
Today was going to be a day of utter relaxation but my ND brain decided otherwise, fixating on cleaning a Revolving Relish Server Dish that Mrs S found at her mums & took a fancy too. It was in a bit of a state when I started but it now looks almost like new & I’ve managed to save all but 1 of the serving spoons (which looks like a replacement anyway).
Then for an encore I cleaned & polished the wooden ‘Lazy Susan’ that made its way back to our house at the same time.
That basically took me to lunchtime so I made us some turkey sandwiches (well it’s that time of year).
I rang my dad again after lunch & this time he had time to talk to me, so out Boxing Day plans are now finalised.
Once I had called my dad we settled down to watch the 2nd ‘Knives Out’ move - ‘The Glass Onion’.
We were going to watch the final instalment tonight but Mrs S decided that a couple of episodes of ‘The Last Leg’ were more to her liking to end the day.
We had Pizza for tea, from the place we normally get our fried chicken takeaways from, it was nice & delivered on time!
Final Thoughts.
Not quite the relaxed day I had envisioned but not a bad day at all.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@autistics When verbalizing and listening to speech is challenging, have you tried using sign language? Is it similarly as exhausting? Differently? Or not particularly tiring?
I can talk now but forming words is just tiring as is listening to them when I feel a strong need to be attentive.
I'd find it easier to perform the "sorry" sign than to say it, for example.
Note: my processing issues are heavily auditory.
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 784 , Saturday 20/12/2025
Saturday started at just gone 7am when I wandered downstairs made breakfast for Mrs S.
After I had finished my chores Mrs S told me that a neighbour of my late MiL had called her to say that they had noticed that the overflow for the central heating was leaking.
So a completely unplanned mission to identify & fix the leak was launched. Somewhat delayed by me being completely unable to find my portable work light (which I found much later in the day still up in the loft at our own house! )
So we trundled across to my MiL's house thru thick fog, narrowly avoiding other drivers who thought that either driving at breakneck speed or driving without lights on in the middle of nowhere were good survival techniques in dense fog!
The first challenge when we arrived was finding the step ladders used to access the loft - this would seem to be a fairly easy task, but thanks to the law of Sod it turned out to be fairly epic.
The ladders were stored in one of the 2 sheds on the property - I do wonder if my late FiL was a bit of a man cave fanatic! when we opened the shed door we found that the ladders were covered by an old kitchen cupboard. On closer inspection the cupboard had fallen off the wall, the chipboard back being compromised because there was a leak in the shed roof!
The cupboard was still full of stuff & it was face down, so as soon as one started to lift it the contents made ominous glass / crockery type noises.
Not to be defeated by mere physics & gravity I hit upon the idea of removing the chipboard backing. This as already noted was warped & compromised due to water damage.
Getting stuff out was then childishly trivial with only 1 old & rather ugly glass vase not making the cut!
Between the 2 of us we managed to get the carcass of the cupboard out of the shed & dumped it out the way behind the other shed.
Then finally the step ladders were laid bare for all to see!
Having gained acres to the loft I discovered, amongst the piles of old clothes, Christmas decorations (some of which have accidentally followed us home) & general bric a brac that seems to breed in lofts of houses that have had the same occupants for a couple of decades, the header tank - conveniently located in the middle of the loft not far from the hatch - yjr lights even worked although they stretched off in the other direction ... how we laughed! *sigh*
The leak was, it turned out due to a worn ballcock valve seal. I had to remove the body of the ballcock valve & replace the seal downstairs because there was no room & less light in the loft.
By happy coincidence I had in my fairly extensive plumbing kit a brand new set of seals - The Lady feeling pity for me after the whole cupboard debacle!
Leak fixed we got everything back into the car & set out for home.
On the way Mrs S treated me to lunch at a small cafe we know on the edge of the moors, a very pretty location & a nice little cafe. I had a seasonal take on a bacon & sausage butty & in all honesty it was one of the tastiest meals I've had in a while! We spent a pleasant hour there then headed for the hills of home.
When we got home I discovered that I had left my portable BT speaker at my MiLs house, this was frustrating, but they are not expensive & Mrs S bought me a new one for Christmas!
We finished the day by relaxing with the cats infant of the TV, starting a 'Knives Out' fest. We managed the first one today & we will probably get thru the other 2 tomorrow.
Final Thoughts.
Actually not a bad day, there was a lot of frustration, but the satisfaction of fixing the problem offset most of that. Getting lunch out & a new BT speaker out of the exercise was just the icing on the cake!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
RE: https://mas.to/@DoctorWhoQuotes/115859836262858910
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic can think of several groups to replace Time Lords and Daleks with here…
Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 788 , Wednesday 24/12/2025
It’s been a Lovely relaxed Christmas Eve.
I slept in late, watched a few good movies (mostly Aardman animation ones), ate more than I should. Then went out & ate even more at a Christmas Eve meal at our favourite eatery!
Home now & getting ready to go to bed - ear plugs will be deployed tonight as I’m sure that next doors kids will be up at crack of sparrows (or should it be Robins ?) fart in the morning!
Final Thoughts.
I wish you all the a wonderful Christmas & for those who don’t celebrate a wonderful Thursday & I wish peace & good will to all!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Like many other autistic and/or disabled people I will spend Christmas on my own and while I appreciate my alone time and the atmosphere and the silence of it, I know it can be difficult and hurtful.
So I would like to connect with other people who spend Christmas on their own or experience feelings of loneliness during these days, by interacting with this post.
That can be just leaving and receiving a virtual hug or telling each other about the gifts you received or gave yourself during the year, maybe share a piece of music, write about your favourite video game or any other special interest. You can do this in private mode (English or German), I know that interacting with groups can be difficult, impossible sometimes, but every now and then I write posts like this during a moment of bravery and I already found amazing online friends by doing so.
Let's support each other in a world that makes building connection so difficult and feelings of loneliness so common.
Boosts are very much appreciated. Thank you.
#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #disabled #ChronicallyIll #neurodivergent #MentalHealth
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Finished prepping vegetables for tomorrow (and stuffing, though I made yorkshire puddings last Sunday and they are in the freezer) so thats spread some of the stress over 2 days not 1. Hit play on my music and immediately energised again (highly recommend if you like punky indie)
Talkin' on the internet - Spiritual Cramp
https://youtu.be/wSU6y7VXOXo?si=m5EjhH8QR3d49HXM
The rollercoaster of energy, lack of, excitement, worry, joy, stress and more has started and I will need to make sure I have these little moments of distraction.
Good luck to all those who are sat on the same rollercoaster. It will finish! Wishing everyone peace, calm, relief from chronic pain, quiet thoughts and where needed, hugs for everyone.
@autistics #ActuallyAutistic had to just ask myself (and one of three cats in front of me) if today was Monday…
…it’s been that kind of day
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