神经病学人的心理学记录

于是我的医生自己也有ADHD然后整个过程还是非常欢乐的，，她疯狂狂笑我的一些叙述

我说我仿佛是一个自己不知道自己是色盲的色盲，我眼里以为红色就是“那种颜色”，但是实际上红色是“红的”，但是我脑子里一直都是“那种颜色”，like而且你还没办法和别人形容，这是种什么颜色……？？？

然后有朝一日你突然发现说，omg，原来别人的脑子里，红色不是“那种颜色”呃呃呃。。。。

医生听完都笑了，，，

#神经病学人的心理学记录
#ADHD确诊实录
#神经多样性

👆🏻你很有可能是无组织型依恋模式。

无组织依恋（混乱型依恋、焦虑和回避共存），源于长期的虐待或忽视经历，这会导致儿童内心产生深刻的冲突。当主要照顾者，原本应提供安慰的人，变成了伤害的源头时，儿童可能会采取分裂和解离等应对机制。

成年后，拥有无组织依恋的人常常在亲密关系中挣扎，他们既害怕亲密，又害怕孤独。他们的人际关系可能混乱且不可预测，有时会延续虐待的循环。这种依恋风格与复杂性创伤后应激障碍（C-PTSD）密切相关，后者源于积累性的发育创伤，即反复经历的创伤性事件，且没有逃脱的途径。

C-PTSD的症状与边缘性人格障碍（BPD）的症状常常重叠，可能包括创伤性解离症状。个体可能经历记忆丧失、身心脱离（感觉与身体失去联系）、现实感丧失（感觉与世界脱离）、以及身份混乱。这些经历可能深刻影响他们的自我认知和建立健康关系的能力。



Disorganised attachment:

Children who have developed this style have been exposed to prolonged abuse and/or neglect. Primary caregivers are the people children must turn to as a source of comfort and support. In a situation involving abuse, these primary caregivers are also a source of hurt; this creates enormous inner conflicts in the child, causing them to have to use mechanisms like splitting and dissociation to cope. If you have been abused in this way, you may grow up to become someone who fears intimacy within relationships but also fear the loneliness of not having close relationships. If your attachment style is disorganised, you may relate to others in a chaotic, unpredictable way, or even perpetuate a vicious abusive cycle. The symptoms you exhibit is primarily related to Complex PTSD. Complex PTSD is caused by ‘cumulative developmental trauma’ (CDT), also known as early relational trauma (Isobel et al., 2017). It happens when you were trapped in a situation where traumatic events repeatedly happened, cumulatively, over a period of time in which you had no route to escape (Sar, 2011).

Many of the symptoms of Complex PTSD overlap with BPD; With Complex PTSD, You may also have symptoms along the ‘”traumatic-dissociative” dimension (TDD)’ (Farina, Liotti and Imperatori 2019). For example, you may experience a ‘loss of continuity with your experience, unexplained memory loss, or randomly ‘losing time’. You may have depersonalisation— feeling disconnected with your own body, or derealisation— a sudden sense of disconnection with the world, like you are ‘floating above’ it. You may also experience identity confusion, and even occasionally lose control of your body.

#神经病学人的心理学记录