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It seems to be quite a common thing among #neurodivergent people - to not want to be perceived.
I just realized that for me that is not about the perception per se.
It’s about being (possibly) judged. Not even necessarily aloud, not even necessarily by glance.
Just knowing they may judge me deep in their head/heart/soul if I am less than perfect(or even if I am too perfect, doesn’t matter). Not a fear of fail even - fear of judgement.
I don’t have problems with very small kids or animals observing me while I am doing something. But anybody I see as capable of judging makes me feel uncomfortable perceived.