For the first time in months, I forced myself to get off the f—ing computer and go for a f—ing walk, where I met this little guy...
If at all possible, go outside sometime...
...your brain may stay in its spiral
...you may not notice any beauty
...but you may just encounter a random #cat in the middle of Amish farmland (who has no respect for it not being #Caturday) and be reminded for a moment that life...life is a thing
#MentalHealth #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #AuDHD #CatsOfMastodon
@autistics
For those of you who may not know. It would appear as if the Guppe groups are down for good. Apparently the bloke who ran it got knifed in the back by the domain being sold to another ahead of schedule and before he could renew it. Whether he will be able to get it back up and running in another way, I don't know.
Fedigroups run a similar service, for those interested. I tagged the autistic one above. https://about.fedigroups.social/home
I'm not sure how widespread this information about the Guppe groups is yet. But, for those of you who us it a lot, whether for autism, or anything else, it may not be the worst idea to post something similar to this to your followers and help spread the word.
When you struggle with Object Permanence, everything in a box, cupboard or drawer becomes a Schrödinger's thing(s).
Do they exist or don't they exist, or do they only exist if you remember them & where you put them?
Do they only exist when you find / rediscover them?
#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #ObjectPermanence
How would YOU communicate thru a short-circuiting transistor radio?
Plain language becomes revolutionary when your neurology sparks and stutters.
My live piece explores dancing close to the edge of the noise.
Found my spirit sticker:
"Can't right now...busy multi-procasti-tasking."
Gina Rippon speaking with New Scientist on the emerging understanding of autism in girls and why so many women are late-diagnosed.
The first comment to the video resonates strongly:
"Or 'You aren't autistic. You have no trouble meeting my eyes, and you interact fine with other people.' Well, sure. I'm 72, and I've been practicing those skills all my life, observing "normal" behavior, and then imitating it. But it's exhausting."
Hello Neurospicy* friends. Are you someone who finds you need calming sounds/music to help with overwhelm?
I recommend BBC Radio 3 Unwind. 24 hours a day of the calmer, relaxed classical music. Available on BBC Sounds from almost any device.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/live/bbc_radio_three_unwind
If you're in the UK, you can also access a massive number of old programmes from BBC Radio 3 Unwind.
Listeners outside the UK can only listen to the live broadcast.
Me feeling #AuDHD overwhelm: I need a break. I need to sit in peace and quiet for a while.
Me sitting in peace and quiet: This is tedious, isn't it. I need to watch TV / surf the internet / do something.
Me "doing something": Why isn't the overwhelm going away?
Log in to ebay to check things I've ordered.
Once logged in, proceeds to spend 30 minu- what do you mean 3 hours? …
Survives 3 hours hunting for the mythical Surface Pro 1 (2013) case & / or cover 😱😭😞
How's that for hyperfocus? Am I doing it right?
Also keywords / points: Mythical, Pro, 1 & 2013. eBay shows me everything else (Surface Go / Surface Pro 4+) instead 🤦.
Right it's 13:30, time for a tasty brunch & a gallon of tea to cheer me up.
(Online) shopping is such fun (⬅️total sarcasm).
P.s. I did find some 'universals' that should do … I hope 🤞.
Just need to recalibrate my brain to except boring over the design / colour I want so I can order the right one.
#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Hyperfocus
(Wanted to make a separate post for this discussion to not mix it up with other topics)
For me, it’s very important to systematize most things. To find their place in the picture of the structure of the world I have in my head.
When I see a new plant - I look up its systematics: less to know the exact name(being able to name them and learn their names in different languages also matters, but it’s not the only goal) and more - to understand how it is related to others, what it is close to, where it descends from.
To be able to place a piece of knowledge I got neatly into the system, understand where it relates to, is more important to me than to remember some details. Like, I don’t care about the precise length of Megalosaurus, but I care that its closest relative is Torvosaurus
But there is a thing. That all doesn’t quite work with people. I neither want nor actually care for categorizing people. I actually really prefer not to, and would sometimes oppose the categorizing. I don’t want to shove anyone into any box. And something similar stands for the feelings towards others. I can easily describe my emotions at the moment, but don’t ask me to define a feeling towards someone. I simply can’t. And I kinda feel very averted from doing that. Like it’s something I shouldn’t do. Even when a social situation demands I do.
Does it have anything to do with #autism?
Does the specific aversion towards labeling people and feeling towards them has anything to do with being #neuroqueer?
#autistic
#neurodivergent
#AuDHD
@autistics
Hey @autistics fam, happy to find us again!😄
#AuDHD #ADHD #Autistic #Autism
The last song I shared within my last relationship, desperately trying to find myself in all the chaos.
I really do love the vocals, especially in the last part of the song, where the German and French words overlap smoothly and create a soft but also dense atmosphere (3:50).
https://youtu.be/eePnRVIHp7o?si=GLp-DfK67nN5A64e
I translated the German words for you:
Passionate, emancipated, sentimental, determined, vulnerable, strong-willed, sensitive, sensual, frail, peaceful, temperamental, distant, crazy, cautious, modern, receptive
#ElectronicMusic #neurodiversity #neurodivergent
#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD
"I’ve never loved the “autism as superpower” narrative, and how it erases those with high-support needs and the challenges autistic people can face."
Why do people find this so hard, when it's simple: #autism can be a super-power, *AND* it is always a disability too. Both, for the lucky ones. Disability only, for the unluckier ones.
There is no "erasure"! 🙄 😠
[Link via @Mepurfield]
This morning I experienced something, which is a good example of sensory issues not being a minor inconvenience for autistic people, but a major aspect of making autism a disability for many of us. They can have a huge impact on our everyday life, restrict our mobility and ability to work and can sometimes put us in danger.
At the end of my morning walk with Lumi, I couldn't cross the street at the pedestrian crosswalk like I usually do, because there were landscape gardeners with very loud machines working close by and they already made me feel overwhelmed and disorientated from the distance.
When I wanted to cross the street at another point of the road, while still disoriented by the noise, I stumbled and fell down at the middle of the street. I didn't hurt myself much, because I was wearing a lot of clothes and I made it to keep hold of Lumis leash, but I felt kind of shocked and couldn't move for some seconds, looking paralyzed at an SUV coming closer. Luckily the driver saw me too and stopped and I was able to get up and walk home.
Still one of my favourite songs for dancing and to listen to on repeat (rich brain food). It took me quite a long time to recognise that this song isn't actually about dancing 🙈
https://youtu.be/2wzXQ8Mbrhs?si=6UWOfp7RX7z6nhEl
(Slow - Chemical Brothers remix)
As some of you may know. I have a chronic lower back issue, which normally ranges from, just wishes to let me know that it's still there, to, oh, I think you over did that a bit dear boy, have an extra dose of pain for your effort. But, ever so now and again, normally as a result of doing something really stupid, I'll enrage it completely. Somehow, and this time I'm not entirely sure how, I did this last Monday and since then I have been suffering from a level of pain, that I haven't managed to reach before. To the extent that, even I had to contact the Doctor's (and if you know me, I only do this as a pretty much life or death choice).
Now, this post isn't really about that. It's slowly getting better and I am managed to at least function enough (when you live alone, you don't really have a choice). It's about my sneaky autistic/Audhd brain that has latched onto this and seems to be demanding that I pay back some of the massive sleep debt that I almost always live with. Now, I suppose it could be the industrial strength painkillers the doctor has put me on, but, I'm pretty sure, may cause you to be drowsy, doesn't mean, will put you to sleep if you are stupid enough to close your eyes for even a couple of seconds.
No. I'm pretty sure it's the sleep debt and the fact that my brain sees this as a perfect opportunity to demand pay back. After all, I doubt if sleep debt is unknown to most of us, in one form or another. We either don't realise that we are building it, or have become very adept at ignoring it. Either through hyper-focus, or sheer bloody mindedness. In part, it's often something we've trained ourselves to do. The days are never long enough to fit everything we want to into them and, I suspect, many of us have a trauma related and perfectionist fear of not doing enough, or basically, not justifying ourselves enough. We're also not beyond taking on far more than we should, simply because we don't like to, or know how to say no and often, simply, because we like to help people.
What, I suspect for many of us, all this means is that adequate rest can be somewhat of a foreign concept and sleep debt builds up. Which is why I think our sneaky autistic brains take every opportunity they can to impose it on us. How many times, when you are finally on holiday, are the first few days a wasteland of barely staying awake? How many weekends, when you really want to get things done, do you just not have the energy? It's like every time your mind relaxes, or we can't really resist, the bill for the sleep debt that we've built up, will get presented, with all the subtlety of a hammer between the eyes.
In other words, our autistic/audhd brains may be weird, but they are not stupid.
#ActuallyAutistic
#Autism
#Audhd
okay so, i want to knit some wool socks for charity this month. i also want to make dragons.
so to keep my AuDHD attention spam, PDA and brain stimulated enough but not too hard i made a plan.
1. knit socks down to the heel.
2. finish a tiny dragon.
3. knit sock until narrowing for toes starts (or half way there, these are some big ass socks).
4. work on tiny dragon.
5. finish the socks.
6. dragon.
7. new socks.
"Autism should not be seen as single condition with one cause, say scientists"
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