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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 917 , Saturday 02/05/2026

Saturday was supposed to start quite late but, as is the way of these things, in fact started around the normal time of around 07:15

Made breakfast for the 2 of us & then did my chores.

Then spent about an hour & a half tidying up the worst of the mess that the builders left. I was going to brutally jetwash the whole thing but there is a promise of rain tonight so I will see what effect that has first.

Managed to squeeze in an hour on the PS5 before Mrs S got back with the shopping.

We spent the afternoon catching up with a couple of her shows & then watched an episode of ‘Sherlock’ while we tucked into a chinese takeaway.

Final Thoughts.

I wish I had some help with these big jobs, far more would get done in a single sitting.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 934 , Tuesday 19/05/2026

Well that day went quick!

Not at all sure what I managed to do other than the usual chores!

Final Thoughts.

Nope, nada, nowt, so empty headed there’s an echo!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

I has this thought to tweak
Positively 4th Street, Bob Dylan for #ND folks, but it hardly seems necessary to change a thing. I always wondered just who he was talking to in it. I guess it was normal people. 😀💜
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“You got a lotta nerve to say you are my friend
When I was down, you just stood there grinning
You got a lotta nerve to say you got a helping hand to lend
You just want to be on the side that's winning

You say I let you down, you know it's not like that
If you're so hurt, why then don't you show it?
You say you lost your faith, but that's not where it's at
You had no faith to lose and you know it

I know the reason that you talk behind my back
I used to be among the crowd you're in with
Do you take me for such a fool to think I'd make contact
With the one who tries to hide what he don't know to begin with?

You see me on the street, you always act surprised
You say, "How are you?", "Good luck", but you don't mean it
When you know, as well as me, you'd rather see me paralyzed
Why don't you just come out once and scream it?

No, I do not feel that good when I see the heartbreaks you embrace
If I was a master thief, perhaps I'd rob them
And now I know you're dissatisfied with your position and your place
Don't you understand, it's not my problem?

I wish that for just one time you could stand inside my shoes
And just for that one moment I could be you
Yes, I wish that for just one time you could stand inside my shoes
You'd know what a drag it is to see you”
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#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD @autistics

Denominating the autistic communication style, that is more precise, detail focused and blunt as disordered, strongly reflects the problematic culture of neuronormativity.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #neurodivergent
@autistics

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 935 , Wednesday 20/05/2026

Up bright & early, to get my own back on them flaming birds! Oh & to go to the gym! 😆

Other than that it’s been a quiet day with nothing much to report.

Final Thoughts.

I’m struggling to people at the moment, the gym was very busy this morning & it kinda used up all my peopling spoons.

Hey ho, tomorrow is another day.

In other news looks like next door have sold their house… wonder what the new neighbours will be like!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

After the realization I'm autistic, I've made adjustments that make me feel better. This includes items considered childish by some. Here's my main collection of nice and cute small things in my office. Looking at this shelf brings me lots of joy!

#ActuallyAutistic @autistics

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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

https://mas.to/@skeletor/116609261870114603

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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic you know you watch too many medical shows when you’re watching a non-medical show and you’re yelling at the TV “Don’t remove that, he’ll bleed out faster!”

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic a few months ago i started adding #RandomMovieTVQuotes to the top of my board newsletter...

…originally as a passive aggressive fuck you to people…

…but i just received my first positive comment to the below quote from this past month's newsletter:

Look, I may be agonizing, annoying…
And I may not know when to stop talking,
but isn’t that who you want fighting for you?
—Jacob Hill, Abbot Elementary

…take that all you fuckers trying to keep me down

I am not here for the ones who were the cool kids. I am here to connect with the ones who have always been the outcasts.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #neurodivergent
@autistics

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic first thought on nearly every interaction i have lately...

…i'm that over this shit...

…also i like the image in general

https://mastodon.social/@effinbirds/116522511479111623

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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX9Yx6As2e2/

@autistics @actuallyadhd 14 months since my autism diagnosis. Almost seems as though I've become "more autistic" since. I suspect, though, that's a fresh new hell of autistic burnout setting in perhaps flavored with a splash of depression. Going out on routine errands is exhausting and overwhelming. A simple phone call with a veterinarian's office depletes me. It's difficult to find motivation for damn near anything.

There are some relatively new studies that try to describe the autistic burnout experience. See "Burnout as experienced by autistic people: A systematic review"

#actuallyautistic #actuallyaudhd

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

https://effinbirds.com/post/815615173850251264

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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 921 , Wednesday 06/05/2026

Wednesday started early at around 06:30 - AKA crack of sparrows fart!

A quick cuppa then down to the gym.

Breakfast & chores were achieved when I got back.

Went out to the shops while Mrs S had a guy visit her regarding her mums estate.
Managed to get some nice grub without getting too many goodies!

Spent the afternoon chasing around the Milky Way, as one does.

Final Thoughts.

Not a bad day at all, it’s not been very warm out of what little sun we got but it looks like the temps might pick up over the next few days.

I need to see about getting so railway sleepers for the garden

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

ten years and the RSD is as strong as ever
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#ND #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD @autistics

This review of autistic burnout might be useful to people who experience it.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0272735825001369?via%3Dihub

#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

People ask each other here, would you cure your Autism if that was a thing (it is not), and I will tell you I could use a better body, but I love my Autistic brain so much that I spend every waking minute high off my ass so that I see only reflections of my own mind as much as possible in this Allistic world.
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Positively 4th. Street again: if you could stand inside my shoes, if I could give you a peek, you’d know what a drag it is to see you, I mean, if the Allistics ever saw what I see about themselves, they would spend the rest of their days hunting down the people responsible for a bloody revenge.
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If they could feel what was done to them, but of course that level of burn destroys the nerves.
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#ND #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD @autistics

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic my third annual film fest of the year is coming up tomorrow (missed two due to my aged cat's passing)...

…and i'm so fried from everything that's been going on for the past few months, i'm seeing one of the lowest counts ever for this film fest…

…and i'm actually ok with taking it slower right now since i can't risk going back into burnout...

...and for those who're curuous, here's what i'll being seeing

https://letterboxd.com/filmfreak75/list/2026-seattle-international-film-festival/

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 922 , Thursday 07/05/2026

A much quieter day today, nothing much to report.

That said, me n Mrs S did get out asses down to the polling station & did our bit to stave off the very real risk of the UK following the US to the dark side!

Final Thoughts.

I am struggling to get things done, although I am making the effort to get to the gym now that I’ve started there. I’m hoping that it becomes a habit that will carry me thru the cold dark mornings next winter!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic i’m technically on vacation since yesterday, but spent 6 hours yesterday, will have spent 4 hours today, and another 2-3 hours tomorrow doing board work

this doesn’t include another 3 hours of work next week while still on vacation

all while fellow board members are taking their time off and not doing any day job and board work

and yet i'm the one who is oppositonally defiant and not appropriately collaboriative

funny how that perception plays out

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic a week after a major dept restructure was announced, late yesterday (after 5pm) another bomb drops…

…anyone who knows anything about me or my work life,, it’s this sort of shit that has me in perpetual fight or flight response…

…also, can someone tell me, when does the high school bullshit end?

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYFiuzqDaa8/

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New Blog: Mirrors: On Self-Image, Autism, Control and a Changing Body

This is a very personal post about my life-long struggle with my weight and my self-image, from the undiagnosed autistic kid with eating issues, to the perimenopausal woman I am now.

https://goingdownwithsundial.com/self-image/

#actuallyautistic
#perimenopause
#menopause
#bodyimage
#mentalhealth
#autism
#neurodivergent
#aging

RE: https://mastodon.social/@filmfreak75/116541230361980562

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic first movie was good…

…other than person doing intro arrogantly assumed we all knew who she was (we didn’t)…

…and name dropped the artistic director by first name only (which we knew)…

…and never bothered to introduce herself (but we’re rude/socially awkward)…

…venue transition was fine and got back in touch with my poor white trash roots by buying the cheapest water i could find to rinse my hands since i have a 2 hour wait …

…guess this will be my film fest 🧵