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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 810 , Thursday 15/01/2026

Thursday was, more or less an extension of Wednesday. Sleep was again somewhat hesitant to find me last night. Just for a change my internal thermometer turned the temperature up to 11!

I think I’ve had 8 hours sleep in the last 3 nights, I don’t run well on this little sleep!

Managed to distract myself playing KCD2 for much of the day. There was a break just after lunch when I had to stand outside in the cold & wet holding a ladder for the guy who came to fix our gutters. It was worthwhile as it has needed doing for a while now!

Final Thoughts.

I hope that this bug takes the hint & buggers off soon!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
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Grocery shopping in the *big* supermarket = 2h.
Recovering from the sensory overload = 3h+

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Dedicated School For Autistic Students Scrapped By Edmonton Public School Board

I love it when autistic adhd women work on the crisis line and allow the magic mind meld powers to work over the phone and get me into an upswing so effortlessly. Gosh. Why can’t that be every time?

Documentaries and vampires were shared interests and we both think Margot Robbie and Nick Holt are snacks. And she referred to my sleep disorder as “like a vampire” we were closer than sisters.
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 825 , Friday 30/01/2026

Friday started around 7am, with winter making its presence felt in the form of an overnight snow shower.

It’s been cold, damp & dank all day.

Did my chores & then vanished into the virtual world of medieval Bohemia.
I’m currently holed up in a secret den in the heart of a forest in medieval Bohemia, I need to be patient & wait for darkness to catch the last of a group of bandits. ADHD me can’t do that so I’m merrily disturbing all the other denizens of the area!

Pizza for tea, a chicken on e for a change! Very nice it was too!

Final Thoughts.

I am over winter now, roll on spring!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic Ten Reasons Why Autistic People Are Being Targeted | The Autlaw for The Unexpected Autistic Life courtesy of Medium (@Medium)

https://medium.com/the-unexpected-autistic-life/ten-reasons-why-autistic-people-are-being-targeted-5a71912d273a

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I was reflecting on my current job situation lately, and I have to say I'm not making tons of money... actually, I currently have to pull money out of savings to keep myself afloat... but man...

I've never felt happier with my job than I do now. I get to tutor. I get to write. I get to be there for those I care about. I do all of this from the comfort of my apartment.

I don't care for offices, at all. For one thing, I don't have to deal with bullshit commutes, but it is more than not having to deal with the commute.

"But don't you need socialization???"

NO! I don't need it. The kind of socialization that happens in an office stinks!!!! Offices offer the type of socialization that requires high conformance.

It's not all flowers and bunny rabbits. I have to deal with the odd dissatisfied student or the overbearing parent.

But I'll take this over going back to the office any time of the day. I wish I had realized this earlier rather than try to make myself conform to the "social ideal."

#ActuallyAutistic

New video: How binaural beats work, and why I use 11Hz Alpha waves in my music.

AarDHD is a project creating functional music for focus and calm. The tracks use binaural beats for brainwave entrainment. The first release, "Flow State" is designed for people with ADHD and autism, or who needs help concentrating or calming down.

https://youtube.com/shorts/4Xq63W-GPiQ

#BinauralBeats #ADHD #Autism #FocusMusic #Neurodivergent #MusicProduction #ActuallyAutistic
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 812 , Saturday 17/01/2026

Ah Saturday!

I’ve felt a lot better today, i’m definitely on the road to recovery!

Climbing the stairs is still more exhausting that I would normally like but the other symptoms are slowly receding!

We watched a couple of episodes of ‘The Night Manager’ season 1 then decided to have a movie - ‘Dead of Winter’ (The 2025 version) with our tea, a Chinese takeaway. The move was really good - Emma Thompson providing an unusual heroine.
There is a dedication at the end ‘For Daniel’ which I cannot seem to find a reason for. I wonder if I’m being especially dense.

Final Thoughts.

I feel better able to cope with the complete chaos that is the world today!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic at my work i could produce verification from world renowned experts and [enter deity of choice] and it would still not be enough to get an accommodation without a major fight

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic so info dump on one or more special interests?

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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic

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Just realized: Whenever I read outrageous news about politics, my outrage comes second. First, my brain makes an attempt to find a perspective in which it might make sense to act like these morons do.

That‘s not healthy for my brain. But I‘ve trained myself so well that I can’t seem to unlearn the reflex.

And this is the main reason why I have to avoid news these days. Of course it’s also because of the helplessness and all the bad emotions. But mainly because „understanding“ causes damage to my brain and soul.

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@autistics

Back to work after a two-week break. Trying to take breaths and work through things methodically. Let's see how long we can keep the meltdown/burnout at bay this time.
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Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 813 , Sunday 18/01/2026

Sunday started around 8am after a reasonable nights sleep!

Its been a foggy & wet winters day & in classic English winter style it’s basically gonna rain for the rest of the week!

We went foraging to Costco™, it was stupidly busy but we made it thru!

A nice relaxing rest of the day, catching up on Mrs S’s shows.

Final Thoughts.

Aside from fighting off the screaming hordes in Costco™ its not been a bad day all told.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

when you meet a one-off crackpot like me, you have to know what it looks like from our side, that we live in a world where nobody understands anything 😳
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A thousand words on two and a half years of knowing I was autistic. I'd love you to read it.

https://matricardo.substack.com/p/i-didnt-always-know

#autism #autistic #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #actuallyautistic #disabled

RE: https://mastodon.social/@filmfreak75/116348213444554307

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic one should never apologize for being “a fact bitch”

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One thing that drives me bugshit is when someone has two or three minutes to tell me to shut up because they didn’t have five seconds to hear me say goodbye 😠
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people are full of shit
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#ND #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD @autistics

Prior to understanding I'm autistic, my life was a strange combination of not fitting in yet trying to fit in, and not bothering to fit in. After my self-realization, I've slowly worked on getting rid of the trying part. I never really fitted in and the more I've just been myself, the better I've felt. I'm unique and now I'm more comfortable than ever letting it show. It's also tied to being non-binary and understanding what types of clothes and accessories I want to wear. Now the main thing is that it makes me feel good. I know my style makes me stand out from the crowd. It's not that I'm done thinking what others think about me but it plays a substantially smaller role than before.

#ActuallyAutistic #NonBinary @autistics

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 814 , Monday 19/01/2026

Woke around 8am after a rough night due to a dicky digestive system!

Really wasn’t feeling the full monty today & spent most of it searching for a suit of armour in KCD2.

Was back on semi normal food by teatime which was a relief!

Final Thoughts.

An exceptional ’hide from the world’ day today.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

having a bit of a weird, busy couple of days, and there’s somethink like a party this afternoon. It’s been a minute, by which I mean several years 😬💜
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#ND #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD @autistics

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 815 , Tuesday 20/01/2026

Tuesday started around 07:30, it would have been later but I forgot to put y earplugs in so the pre-dawn chorus of next door kids woke me up.

A quiet day of chores & KCD2 - Mrs S was out in the office so I had the house mostly to myself.

Final Thoughts.

I need to go get a blood test on Thursday - I’ll have to see if I can persuade Mrs S to drop me off at the hospital because the GPs are claiming that they are snowed under. I have no doubt that I will wait several hours for the dubious benefit of some one taking 5 minutes to stab me in the arm!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves